𝐜𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐞 ᶠⁱˡˡⁱᵉ

new email

TW: suicide

milliebbrown@gmail.com→fwolfhard@gmail.com

finn

i'm sorry this has to be to you.

the uncertainty that people might not find my last words because you never go through your email is hilarious to me.

i've been struggling for a while.

i thought i was doing better until i messed it up again. i always mess things up.

my mom and siblings blame me for something that i barely understand, i have one friend who is stretched between me and sadie. he sides with sadie, it's obvious.

and i can't blame him. i fucked up big time.

my family is watching me 24/7 and i bottle all my emotions up until i go to bed.

i'm so tired of being sad and guilty.

i'm so fucking tired of missing you.

you can't save me this time.

if you are not living, you are dying, and sadly, i haven't done anything close to living and a long time.

i'm sorry.

sent to fwolfhard@gmail.com
03/06/20
12:28

a/n please read.

hi! i'm sorry it's been a while, i'm writing a new book which should be up next chapter.

if you ever feel like this, please reach out. you are wanted, you are loved, you are not broken

on and unrelated note, i miss her so fucking much.

-bellie