Every time.

I promise I won't judge

"Let me guess, watching him in that emotional state makes you feel, helpless, and powerless, because you don't know what to do in that type of situation" Alex states, with a knowing look.

"You had the same problem with Maggie, didn't you?"

"Yeah...ever since her family reacted badly the her coming out, she just became used to building a wall around people closest to her, so she doesn't get hurt again, and while I do understand why she's doing this, it isn't healthy, but she's slowly getting better at expressing her emotions, and I'm really proud of her for it" Alex states smiling softly.

"That's great.I'm glad she's working on that" I remark genuinely happy for her.

"Me too, but I'm guessing that's not the case for Mon-El" Alex affirms.

"In someways yes, but I think this has something to do with the neglect he received from his parents, and the stigma around men being vulnerable"

"Ugh! It's honestly so stupid that some of society believes that if a man cries that he should be classified as weak!"

"Right! That's such a stupid thing to believe! A man should be able to show emotion and not be labeled weak!" I exclaim frustration present in my tone.

"Exactly!"

"This country is so unjust"

"Mm, don't get me started" Alex remarks chuckling softly. "But it's a good thing that we have you to inspire us to be better" Alex states, grinning softly, and I can't help but mimic the action. "Okay now on to the second reason of why your alien boyfriend doesn't like expressing his emotions"

"...he just never—he never had anyone to talk to...I don't even think he knew talking about your mental health existed" I remark, losing the smile on my face.
It's not just dawning on me that Daxam wasn't an ideal place to be born, or raised, but sometimes I still manage to be surprised about the harsh conditions that most of those daxamites have to go threw on a regular basis. Not being able to speak their political views! Numbing themselves so they can't feel anything! Being oppressed! That's just not a way to live, and it took me a while to realize that Mon-El was treated no differently. Prince or no prince, his family treated him like garbage, and I should've have kept that in mind when Mon-El first arrived, but instead I yelled at him for the mistakes he made, instead of calmly explaining the rights and wrongs of doing things on earth, I should have been easier on him. The loss of Daxam was still fresh for him, but I didn't treat like the guy who just lost his entire planet. I treated him like he was this stubborn insensitive guy, who enjoyed nothing but drinking and sleeping with random women, but as I got to know him and spend more time with him, he became a new and different person, and I began to see him as this—still stubborn—charming, adorable, funny, brave, guy. Who didn't know how to adapt to these new strange feelings he began to receive ever since landing here...I saw him as someone who had a huge heart, but didn't quite know how to use it.

"...yeah he did mention being used to numbing himself of complicated feelings...so talking about his mental health must be...unnatural for him" Alex, states, shifting slightly so her bodies facing me. "Did he open up to you?" Alex ask, causing me to scrunch my eyebrows together in a confused manner. "When he got his memory back?" Alex adds.

"On um yeah" I answer, now understanding what she meant. "I was actually surprised when he did"

"Do you think he'd ever open up to you again?" Alex ask.

"No not really, he seemed pretty uncomfortable the entire we were talking, and I don't really blame him for it" I remark toying with my fingers, trying to avoid her gaze.