Running Through The Waves (Isla Vagues Series #1) COMPLETED

Kabanata 31

Kabanata 31:
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Panay ang tulo ng luha ko sa kalagitnaan ng biyahe. I covered my face with my hands to supress the sob but I failed. They keep slipping in my mouth and my tears won't stop streaming. Sobrang sakit. Sobrang sikip ng dibdib ko. I can't breathe in pain.

Kuya Yuno seems so bothered and worried as he always glance at me through the rearview mirror. Ramdam kong gusto niya akong tanungin tungkol sa nangyari pero pinipigilan niya lang ang sarili. Sa tingin ko naman, hindi na ako makakapagsalita dahil sa basag kong tinig ngayon.

I thought Kairus and I were fine. Akala ko handa na talaga siyang harapin ako sa kabila ng nangyari. But what do you expect, Kayeziel? That he doesn't have a deep hatred for you? That he won't get his revenge for what you've done. Akala mo ba ayos lang sa kanya na makita ka ngayon na parang walang nangyari?

Do you think he will accept that easy all of what happend? For sure he has a rooting hate inside him that he choose to hide so I can fall to his tricks. Ganoon ka naman kadaling mahulog. Isang sulyap at kita lang sa kanya at agad na akong bumibigay. Hindi ko lang matanggap na pinuntirya niya talaga kung saan ako mahina.

I was still drowning on loving him and he use that weakness to attack me. And I was got hit and blow violently and mercilessly that all the pain is coming back to me now. Creeping my insides and crumpling my heart.

Pagkabalik sa mansiyon ay mabilis akong dumiretso sa kwarto. Sinalubong ako ng mga kasambahay at binati pero naudlot iyon ng umiiyak akong nilagpasan sila. They all gasped as their eyes followed me.

"M-Ma'am Kayeziel." pagtawag pa sa akin ni Lea. Ang isa sa mga matagal nang kasambahay rito at isa sa mga malapit sa akin. I don't want them to be worried but I can't speak to assure them. Masiyado akong ubos at wasak na hindi ko na iyon magawa pa. Sobra akong nanghihina.

I closed and locked the door of my room. I laid in my bed and cried my heart aches. Hindi ko alam kung gaano katagal. Hindi ko alam kung maaubos pa ba itong luha ko. Ni hindi ko alam kung gaano na karami ang naibuhos ko. Nang mamugto iyon at magsawa akong humikbi ay nagpatitig na lang ako sa kisame.

My phone ring out loud and I immediately saw Zaijan in the caller ID. Inabot ko ang phone at pinatay ang tawag. I also shut it down so he can called me. Alam kong mabibigyan ko ng hinala si Zaijan rito. I know he's too concerned on me but I can't speak to him now.

Ayoko siyang abalahin sa trabaho niya. He done more than enough to me. Siguradong iiyak lang ako sa kanya ngayon kapag kinausap ko siya, kaya mabuti na lang na umiwas. Dinalhan ako ng pagkain ng kasambahay sa kwarto ko pero hindi ko rin iyon kinain.

I eventually drift to sleep with a heavy feeling in my chest again. I thought I'm done with this and all the pain will fade away but it feels like I turn back the clock where I was devasted five years ago. Ganitong ganito iyon kabigat. Ganito rin iyon kalala at ganito rin iyon kahirap.

I survive this feeling five years ago but now I'm not sure if I can still make it. Kinabukasan nagtatalo ang isip ko kung papasok ba ako sa trabaho o mamanatili rito. And I know so much that if I'll stay inside my room I will cry again so bad like last night. My mind will never be at peace and those thought will keep bothering me.

So even I'm not in a right pace to work, I force myself to get up and prepare. I took a bath and do my usual routine. I look at my reflection in the mirror. My eyes were rimmed with dark circles and I heaved a sigh. I should thank someone who discover concealer. At least I can hide my pain and grief. I had a pretty eyes but it always shed tears.

Nakatulala ako habang nasa biyahe. Tahimik si Kuya Yuno pero panay pa rin ang sulyap sa akin. I am not in myself when I enter my office. Mabilis akong yumuko sa lamesa ko at tinago ang mukha. I still have some paper works from yesterday that I didn't finish. Kaya pinilit ko ang sarili na kumilos.