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/Lucas Coly/

/17 and a half/

/Senior/

1:23 AM July 4th, 2020

I came into our bedroom and looked over to the right and saw my baby girl Armani in Autumn's arms as she rocked her back and forth and back and forth singing a sweet song

"Hush little baby don't say a word mamas gonna buy you a mocking bird and if that mocking bird don't sing mamas gonna buy you a diamond ring and if that diamond ring is brass mamas gonna buy you a looking glass and if the looking glass gets broke mamas gonna buy you a billy goat" I cleared my throat and she jumped

"Oh I didn't know you were back," she said looking nervous

"Yea I'm back early wassup," I said undressing

"N-nothing I was just putting Mani back to sleep she was hungry so I fed her and changed her diaper," she said laying her down

I looked her up and down she was fully dressed

"You got dressed to do that?"I said not believing her

"She threw up on my clothes so I changed," she said arranging the sheets

"It's 1 in the morning and you got shoes on?. Come on Autumn you know better than to lie to me in my face yo"

"Baby we couldn't go to sleep because of the fireworks so I was gonna go to Brianna's," she said

"Mhmm go in the room," I said not believing a word she said

"No do it right here in front of your newborn daughter" she retorted

"Autumn I'm NOT gonna tell you again" I yelled

"GO.IN.THE.ROOM." I gritted through my teeth

"No Lucas can't you see our turning into your father, do you want Armani to grow up without a mother like you did?" she said I completely blacked out

/Autumn/

/16 and a half/

/Junior/

I watched as he ran towards me with his light brown eyes now turning black consumed by darkness he slammed me down on the ground got on top of me and repeatedly hit me like I was his size I'm only 5'2 and 115 pounds he's 6'3 and 189 pounds

"Lucas stop, please" I yelled out

"Please!" I screamed he punched me in the face got up and left

"Waaaaah Waaaaah" I hear my baby crying I got up slowly feeling the pain everywhere 

"Hush little baby don't say a word mamas gonna buy you a mocking bird and if that mocking bird don't sing mamas gonna buy you a diamond ring and if that diamond ring is brass mamas gonna buy you a looking glass and if the looking glass gets broke mamas gonna buy you a billy goat and if that billy goat don't pull" I silently cried and sniffed and finished singing

"Mama's gonna buy you a cart and bull And if that cart and bull turn over mamas gonna buy you a dog named Rover And if that dog named Rover won't bark mamas gonna buy you a horse and cart and if the horse and cart fall down you'll be the sweetest little baby in town" as I finished I heard her soft snores we sat like that for about an hour. I put her down in her crib and went into the bathroom wiping the blood off my face

I cried as I looked at myself in complete horror I rocked back and forth holding my self how could the man I once love hurt me so bad I got up wiped the tears and blood off my face took out the first aid kit and wrapped my wrist up and put Neosporin on my lip I have bruises everywhere but I can't do anything about those I took pictures of my face and my body and saved them I turned the light off in the bathroom and looked at Armani one last time before going to bed I looked at my phone and it was 2:50 I powered my phone off and cried myself to sleep


~5:49~

I felt the bed dip as I woke up from my sleep I rubbed my eyes and it hurt I immediately felt pain

"Ahh" I winced as I touched my lower back I felt two hands wrap around my waist I winced again

"Lift up your shirt," he told me his breath reeked of liquor I lifted up my shirt as instructed

"Ahh," I said as his hands roamed my body

"I'm sorry baby I didn't mean to hurt you," he said as a tear left his eye

"I know baby" maybe if I never said something to him he wouldn't have hit me were gonna be okay now I know he didn't mean it I shouldn't have provoked him were gonna be fine right?

I silently cried as I told myself these lies to keep me sane I can't do this anymore I'm slowly becoming numb 

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