☁️ 𝐑𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐬, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐜𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬☁️

The old dinosaur (continuation of the other chapter)

Ok so here is the other reason-

So in my old school I had to go to summer school because they didn't round my 79.9 to a 80...

Let that sink in...

79.9 to a 80 to pass the grade

.........

OK!

So when we got to my grandma house which is only 7 blocks from their (i think she don't live Far)

I was crying and my mother was comforting me, my grandma n walks out of my room and ask why I was crying. My mom told her...

And this is what she fucking said:

"see Erin this is why you gotta pay more attention in school, you can't keep hanging out with your friends. Shuri made it to the next grade."

"Shuri made it to the next grade."

She just compared her ONLY granddaughter to my best friend... (she still at that old school but we both graduated since we were in 7h grade at the same time)

Let that sink the fuck in...

DO YOU KNOW HOW MAD I WAS. I THOUGHT I WAS A COMPLETE FAILURE AND I STILL THINK I AM OK!

luckily my mother stood up for me because she knew my grandma would say those things and I'm insecure about myself, I stayed up till 3:30 am that night thinking about doing the thing I wish I did ever since. But I passed out from crying to hard, when I'm that upset and my mom would ask me "what do you want to eat?" I would say loud and clear

"nothing/ I'm not hungry yet"

She would still get me food or tell me "cut the bullshit, what do you want"

I would be to scared (ill make another chapter about my mom) and say "anything really" and fake smile

So to all of the people in real life who think I'm a perfect happy little girl and think they know me...

You don't fucking know me at all...