my ruthless husband

chapter 53

           Dedicated to xoxek 12

                 // Christina pov//

"Listen you have no right coming into my house commanding me so please get out " I stand up and she pulls me back down on the seat ,I roll my eyes as I sigh loudly

"I  am sorry I shouldn't have done that" is my ear messing with me or did she just apologize

"I am sorry Christina ,I really am " she bends in front of me as I hear her quiver. "I am so sorry for everything " shit my mom was crying why was she crying right now?

"If this is your way of..." before I could complete my sentence she hugged me for the first time in like forever she hugged me her touch was so weird but yet very comforting a smile escapes my lips  not wanting her to let go ,to be honest my mom never really hugged me like this it was always the pulling my clothes with her fingers and the poking and insults but today she hugged me like she never wanted to let go  it felt so different ,different to the way Sam hugged or anyone else her touch was... I can't really explain it but right now I didn't want to let go

"I am so sorry Christina for everything I put you in I've  been so terrible to you" I didn't realise that she was still crying I push her away from me with so much difficulty as she wouldn't budge

"Stop it !" I stand up all of a sudden I was feeling really angry and I couldn't explain this anger that was fueling deep down

"Get out now ,I am not Sam and definitely not all those people that would buy your daily crap " I knew what she was doing trying to seek sympathy

"Please leave " I manage to say as I remember the doctors advice stress isn't good for the babies

"I know you won't want to believe me ,you don't trust me I get it ,Christina I have done so much things that hurt so much people but I am not leaving here until I get my daughter back " now she was pushing it

"What daughter mom ,you don't have a daughter here all you got is an enemy who just wanted your love and support but enemies don't help each other do they ? Oh wait they do cause after all you need your enemies closer right ?" I don't know what pushed me to say all these things but I felt so much better

"You were never my enemy Christina" she stands up from the floor as we stand eye level

"So what was I then ? Tell me ! Your daughter pffft that will be an understatement wait I know your porn if it's not that mom then I must have been your bitch right the one you used when you felt like it and threw when you didn't " she made me feel like that every time

"You don't understand I don't think you will I should leave ,I shouldn't have came "

"Oh I see when things get tough you decide you want to fucken leave well I actually want to have this conversation mom"

" Christina I know that you're upset about everything ,you're upset with me and  Cathy but everything she did it wasn't her fault" so she came all the way here to support her daughter

"I see where this is going " I move my finger around dramatically I could feel my tears cause my heart felt like it was breaking ,the little pieces that I had  managed to put back together was breaking hearing her say those words.  "Mom do you know what you are ,you're a bitch a bloody whore just like your daughter Catherine who never wants to see anyone happy ,you two are..." my face was heating up right now as she smacked me across my face I wasn't expecting that and that just made even angrier

"how dare you ?" I quiver as tears fell down my face I couldn't believe she just did that.  "How dare you!"  I wasn't asking I was just letting my frustration out