6/7/20
You know what I need
Right about now?
A pick-me-up
Something to make me laugh out loud.
A video maybe
Or maybe a meme
Some friends to talk to
Would be good too.
But I can't.
And there's not.
All anything seems to say
Is "Kelli you're incompetent,
Jeez just go away."
The world is not spinning
And it's just getting worse.
My problems can wait,
I won't offset the course.
But I can.
And I will.
There's nothing they can do
Cuz my brain is hyperactive
And my heart is beating, too.
Everything's scattered
And nothing's the same.
Things are all changing
Like some prank of a game.
What used to be a joke
Is keeping jokes from coming.
And what used to be peaceful
Is coming out too violent.
And anything I say
Makes me a bad person.
And anything I say
Is just gonna hurt others.
You're the nicest girl I know.
She would never hurt a soul.
But one slip up and there you go.
If everyone likes me,
Why don't I?
Looking deep in
and wondering why.
Not perfect
Not cruel
Don't do anything I don't want to do.
But I'm not a nice person
And it's always been like that.
Like some sick facade
I can't seem to take back.
And the worst is coming out
Cuz the worst is what's happening.
I'm missing
I'm hurting
It's painful
But it's fine
It'll be over within time.
