Supercorp: Will Supercorp survive the truth

Chapter 20

Lena's p.o.v.
6 months' time skip

Kara has spent a lot of time in the DEO over the past few months getting back into shape so she can be Supergirl again. Now she's fully rehabilitated, she's allowed to be a Supergirl again. Actually, I am quite scared that she will be injured again, but it makes her so happy.

Eliza has moved back to Midvale because her life is there and the busy city life is not for her. I got a pretty good relationship with her when she was here.
Kara is still sleeping peacefully here past me she was back late last night so I let her sleep for a while when I go for breakfast. I just eat some corn flake and I go back to my bedroom to see if Kara is already awake but she is still asleep. I set her alarm clock so she doesn't arrive late for work and I leave for Lcorp. That's how it has been in the past few weeks. Kara returns in the middle of the night when I am already asleep and she is still asleep when I leave for work and when I return home from Lcorp in the evening she is already keeping the world safe again. I miss her, I miss the time when she wasn't Supergirl and still had time for me.

Since I and Kara no longer have time for each other, I have started my research into a treatment for cancer. And I am working on that again today. After hours of research my eyes close and I decide to go home. I call my driver and he takes me home. I enter my penthouse and I call Kara her name but she does not answer but there is a note on the table: Hey Lena you were late working I am with Alex for sisters night. Good to know that she has time for her sister but not for her girlfriend. I get the feeling that she only needed me when she was injured and now that she is back Supergirl she is not making time for me.
I grab the bottle of Whiskey and a glass and I start drinking after 4 glasses I feel tipsy and I start to cry. So I drink a few more glasses until I feel no more and I just stare and think I'm a Luthor I don't deserve happiness in my life. And no matter how hard I try I will never be good enough for Kara she will always choose Supergirl over me. I drink another glass or 2 and I stumble to my bed. I crawl into bed and lie down in the middle so Kara barely has room to pass me by, hopefully she understands the hint and goes to sleep in the guest room.

I wake up when Kara wants to crawl into bed but because I have so little space left it is quite difficult. She tries to push me aside so that she has room but I just stay there so that she has no room and she sighs.
"babe can you make a little space so I can lie in bed too?" she ask
"In the guest room there is still a completely empty bed with enough space" I say coldly
"What's wrong with you?" she ask worried
"Never mind!" I say harshly
"Lena did you drink?" she ask worried
"What does it matter" I say and I feel tears coming up in my eyes
"Yes it matter, you matter to me" she say confused that I was mad at her and I go sit in the bed
"I haven't seen much of that in recent weeks. I was only good enough for you when you could do nothing more. But now that you can be Supergirl back, you don't even look back at me" I yell in frustration
"That is not true" she say defending herself
"When is the last time we spent time or crawled into bed together again. You have time for everyone and everything except me. I needed you for the past few weeks, but you were nowhere. The past few weeks I've cried myself to sleep, but you don't know because you're just never there again" I sight
"I'm sorry I've been busy. But I have a city to protect" she say
"So the city means more to you than your girlfriend?" I ask in disbelieve
"No" she say quietly
"Maybe this just doesn't work. We may not be destined" I say and a tear escape from my eyes
"Do not say that. You mean everything to me" She say
"You don't let that show" I say
"I'm sorry I didn't spend too much time on you. I didn't know how you felt about it" she say and she wants to hug me but I push her away
"Not a surprise that you don't know how I feel because we never talk anymore" I defend
"I know and that's my mistake" she say
"I can't even remember the last time we really talked to each other" I say disappointed
"But we are talking now" she say dryly
"Kara it's too late. You will always choose Supergirl above me. You will always choose to safe the people even it means that we don't spend time anymore" I say and I feel more tears comming up. I quickly wipe my tears abay because I don't want to be weak
"I know that that's what I did the last month but I want to change for you" she say  
"What if you can't change and what if we aren't meant to be" I say
"We can make this work if we both try to make this work" she say hopfully
"Believe me I don't want to lose you not again. I need you with me" I say softly and she hugs me
"Then we are going to make this work" she say
"But how? I'm a Luthor I don't deserve happiness. I'm not good enough for you" I say And I start sobbing in her shoulder
"Don't ever think that again you're amazing. You make me happy. You give me strength. If it wasn't for you I would be still in that damn wheelchair. You pushed me trough the revalidation. You did help me in more ways than I ever could describe. And I want to be there for you it's just that I'm not used to the fact that there is someone at home waiting for me because I've been single for a very long time" she say and I feel that she is crying
"I know and I'm not used to it either. I also need to change because it's not only your fault" I say and I mean it. Because I also could say home in the morning until she is off to work or I could work from home sometimes.
"We can talk in the morning because I see that you're tired" she say and we lay down in bed and Kara was the big spoon and she kiss me on my check. I turn around to kiss her properly on her lips and it felt again like it was the first kiss I turn back around and I lie in the arms of the person I love.
"I really hope we can work this out because I really want to be your girlfriend and make you happy because you're the best thing ever happend to me. You're the most amazing person I know. You can make my days better with just that gorgeous smile of you" she say and she probally thinks that I'm asleep
"I love you" I whisper and I fright from what I just said. What if she don't feel the same I think worried
"I love you too" she say and she pulls me even closer to her