His phone vibrated and he looked at it.
"Food here. Stay here I'll be right back." He said and I nodded.
I looked around the bathroom and sighed.
I'm going to miss this place. I thought to myself.
Moments later, Marcel came back with the food.
He had it set up on these two trays we had and he sat it on the bathroom sink.
He turn the water on in the tub and threw the hemp seed soap we had in there to calm us. When the water got to the level we wanted it, he told me to get in.
I got in and then he handed me the tray. He closed the bathroom door and turned on the speaker. He connected my phone to it and he got his tray and sat across from me in the tub.
We ate and enjoyed each other company.
W.A.Y.S by Jhene Aiko played. This is just the song we needed at a time like this.
At forty-four minutes to four
An angel walked up to my door
Opened the windows to my soul
Told me he thinks that I should know
That there's no slowing down
As the globe spins 'round and 'round
You gotta keep going, gotta keep going
Gotta keep going, you gotta keep going
Gotta keep going, you gotta keep going
You gotta keep going, you gotta keep going
You gotta keep going
If there's one thing that I learned
While in those county lines
It's that everything takes time
You have gotta lose your pride
You have gotta lose your mind
Just to find your peace of mind
You have got to trust the signs
Everything will turn out fine
So why aren't you smiling? Why aren't you smiling?
Life can get wild when, you caught in the whirl wind
Lost in the whirl wind, your chasing the wind
You gotta understand
There's really no end, there's really no beginning
There's really no real, there's really no pretending
There's really no fail, there's really no winning
'Cause nothing really isn't, everything really isn't
I closed my eyes and let the lyrics speak to me. I hardly ate. Marcel began to rub my feet.
"Why are you rubbing my feet. You shouldn't be doing all this for me it's your birthday." I said to him.
"But you're grieving. You're not ok. Let me take care of you." He said as he was chewing he pancakes we got from ihop.
I closed my eyes again and listened to the lyrics.
At forty-four minutes to four
An angel walked up to my door
Opened the windows to my soul
Told me he thinks that I should know
Life only gets harder but you gotta get stronger
This is for my brother, I do this for my daughter
That's why I keep going, that's why I keep going
That's why I keep going
That's why I keep going, I gotta keep going
I gotta keep going, I gotta keep going
I gotta keep going, gotta keep going
Gotta keep going
I gotta show them, that I can keep going
I gotta keep going, I gotta keep going
I gotta keep going
Why aren't you smiling? Why aren't you smiling?
Life can get wild when, you caught in the whirl wind
Lost in the whirl wind, your chasing the wind
You gotta understand
There's really no end, there's really no beginning
There's really no real, there's really no pretending
There's really no fail, there's really no winning
'Cause nothing really isn't, everything really isn't
That's why I keep going
As the song finished, I opened my eyes. I was coming down from my meditative state.
I opened my eyes to Marcel staring at me. I shed at few tears and he moved the trays and put them on the floor.
He adjusted himself in the tub to wear he was now sitting behind me.
He started to massage my head as I cried on his chest.
"I know baby I know. I miss those boys a lot too. We'll get through this." He said.
He let me have my crying session as he just held me and the music played.
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7pm
Basically all day Marcel and I just looked for houses and ate and watched movies.. At one point we went in the twins room and of course I started to cry again.
We were now in the back patio with our sweaters and sweats on.
The cool Florida night air actually calmed me down even more.
Marcel and I were just staring at the sky.
"How was your birthday?" I asked him as if we weren't in the house together all day.
"It was amazing. I spent it with one of the strongest women I know." He said to me and I gave a weak smile.
He looked at the sky then looked back at me.
"Our sons are up there." He blurted out and his tears started to come down. I felt shocked. I look at him and wiped away his tears.
"Yeah they are." I said and he look at me. We shared a deep kiss and for the rest of the night we continued to enjoy each other's company and watch movies and eat.
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Chapter 10
Start from the beginning
