I don't know you

if i hear you name

peters p.o.v

the tour guide looked at me like i was crazy but who was i too lie? i was serious for a genius he really is stupid i ghed

"mr.jeremy may i please ask what does tony have to do with this?" he just stares at me unterlly speechless for a while 

"he has everything to do with this and if he where here he would probably tell you that what you said what the most shit-take aswer he ever heard and he is mearly disgusted by the prospect of having a person that he vo-doubtaly probably cares about say that behind his back i mean you where a little tiny bird hidden in a bush with a broken leg and he was the mighty eagle came in and swooped you up and rescued and this is how you reply him? seemingly no respect for him? at all if i where to be honest if he where here hed probably be revolted by your words and his creations are magnificent by the way tell me would you be able to make any better or be better?" i froze at that every single noise after those words where tuned out and i remembered what i was like like years ago

'i just wanted to be like you'

'and i wanted you to be better

'if you where good enough mabye tony would still be alive'

'deep down you know im right'

'peter he loved you'

'no he didnt if he did then why did he leave me??!?!'

'peter..'

'pepper please you know it deep deep inside of you that if i was never here then tony would still be alive! rhodney told me what he did pepper! i killed him pep!'

'i dont think tony would have done what he did if he didnt know you would be here when he was gone'

'i know you your spiderman! daddy said that you where an idiot for going to space'

'oh yeah? guess he was right doesn't change the fact that so was he for doing the same'

'peter what are hugs for? mommy says because there for making people feel loved, but im looking for a second opinion'

'.......hugs are for letting people know that you wont let go'

'genius billionare play boy philanthropist. tony always refereed to himself at that, most bullshitted sentence i ever heard ha !who knew that the grave i seemingly burred him in would say hero, father, son, mentor'

'peter...'

'just dont okay? dont look me in th eye and tell me its not my fault because im done with people lying to me over and over again'

"...your right" i looked up from the deak to him

"damn right im right" i sucked in a shuddery breath

"its my fault"

"well shocking for you it is who would you blame this at god? came out of your mouth not mine *scoff*" he folded his arms and leaned at the table

"*sigh* so...next question?"

"oh where not over this area we have to deal with this problem" i glared at him tears in my eyes

"uh..no we dont not part of the internship"

"*scoff* who is at the end of the table now? ya right me, so care you explain why would you love to slap tony stark?" i looked at him silently begging for him to stop saying his name

"id tell you if you please stop saying his name its getting on my nerves" actually it crushing my nerves one by one peice by peice 

"what is with you and him? do you hate the guy??" at that i sucked in a breath i never really said how i feel about tony to anyone people know, but they dont really truly know how i feel about him in words, and the word 'i love you' i haven't really said it to anyone since he died because i never got a chance to say it to the only person who deserved to here it more then anyone

"no...no i dont"

"then how come you i say 'get annoyed by his name'" i felt bile rise up at the question 

"i want to leave"

"not before you answer the question" i stood up knocking the chair down and stared at his right in the eyes 

"BECAUSE EVERY TIME I HERE HIS STUPID ASS NAME I REMEMBER THAT HAPPY ENDINGS DON'T EXIST!!!  THAT FAIRY TALES THAT PEOPLE READ IN BOOKS ARE JUST BULL-SHITTED EXCUSES FOR LETTING PEOPLE KNOW THAT DREAMS CANT COME TRUE" i clapped my hands and leveled him with my glare and started pacing the room

"WELL SURPRISE SURPRISE FAIRY TALES ARDENT TRUE BECAUSE IF THEY WHERE THEN UNIVERSE WILL BE AT LEAST A BIT LESS CRUEL!! then put a man like him on earth AND CURSE ME FOR MEETING HIM!! EVERY TIME, EVERY TIME I HERE HIS NAME? ALL THAT I REMEMBER IS PAIN DESPAIR, SO YA, ALL I REMEMBER WHEN I LOOK AT HIM IS THAT I ONCE LOST MY DAD!"

"-....everytime"

tony's p.o.v

well that's one way to crush a mans heart guess he really goes loathe me