False Starts || Dave Grohl

Chapter 46

Krist shoots me a sorrow filled look before taking Shelli's hand in his much larger one, "I'm gonna help her up to our room. See you later Dave."

As I watch the older couple walk into the house, stumbling a few times along the way, I felt the air around me dissipating with every step. Everyone here knows not to leave Dave and I alone for long periods of time. Our relationship is crumbling around us and while we know it's inevitable, we don't want to let each other go.

"Can uh... Can we talk?" His question caught me off guard and when I glance his way, I can tell the he's just as nervous to be alone together as I am. "In our room?" At this point, I know there is no way in hell that I'd be able to verbally respond, so instead I give the boy a curt nod and follow his lead toward the guest house.

The first thing I notice when we walk in is Kurt's light brown dyed hair on the couch and none other than Frances sitting on his lap with one of her many toys in hand. Last I checked, she was still in Seattle with Courtney, so seeing her immediately brightened my mood. "Bean!"

A bright smile appears on Kurt's face when he realized I changed directions to join him and the young child, "She's here for a couple of days so Courtney can get some things done back home."

The young Cobain's similarities to her father at such a young age shocks me. From the same bright blue eyes to her nose and facial expressions; it makes me wonder if Eva would've been the same way, taking after her father. "She's been excited to see you."

"Well, we all know that I'm just as excited to see her." My buzz started to fade as I situated myself next to Kurt on the couch, allowing the small child to grip my pointer finger with her hand. "She's getting stronger every day."

I knew Dave was watching the interaction from with stairwell, but I didn't care. I lost my only chance to be a mother, so this mini Cobain is going to be spoiled by me in every way possible. "I still can't believe I'm a father."

"She's just like you Kurt..." I brush my fingers over the small amount of blonde hair that has started to grow, "She's going to be a heartbreaker one day."

Kurt cringes at my comment, "That's a terrifying thought. She shouldn't be like me or Courtney. I wish she would take after you instead."

With that comment, Dave clears his throat. "Rose?"

"I'm coming," I respond with a sigh. My thumb grazes over the girl's cheek before I push myself back up to my feet. "I'll be back in a few. Dave wants to talk."

Rather than respond, Kurt shifts his full attention back to his daughter. For someone that used to be terrified to be a father, he sure is good at it. I know that if I don't act soon, he'll be the one spoiling the small girl before I even get a chance.

The walk to Dave and I's bedroom is silent, both of us opting to wait until we're in a confined space of our own before speaking up about anything we need to say to one another. I mean, there's a child in the house for god's sake and both of us curse like sailors when we argue.

"Do you want to start trying?"

The question took me off guard completely. We haven't been able to carry out a normal conversation, let alone discuss the possibility of having another kid together. "Start what?"

"Just... seeing you with Frances," He shrugs before taking a seat next to me on the bed, "It seems like you might be ready to try again. Have a kid of our own, you know?"

"We have a kid of our own Dave," My voice cracks slightly. "She's back in Seattle."

Dave's hand moves to cup my inner thigh, causing my body to stiffen. "Yeah, we do. I just think it would be nice to have our own little one running around." Chills run up my spine as Dave begins drawing circles through my jeans, "We could even start now..."

"No Dave." My hand lands on top of his, stopping the unwanted action before pushing him away.

"No?"

"Yeah, no." With that, I stand up and step away from the boy I can't help but love, "You've treated me like shit since I came back in November. Do you know how that makes me feel? It's like I'm your sex toy. Do you want me to leave again? Tell me, and I will."

"No, I don't want you to leave Rose. Why the fuck would you think that?"

His mouth tells me one thing, but his face is saying something completely different. "Really? Because it sure didn't seem like it when you were running off with Courtney Love in Brazil or all those nights you were out all night alone in Seattle. You came to my childhood home, gave me this sob story about how you wanted me with you, but then proceeded to treat me like I'm worthless Grohl."

"Rosemary."

"David."

His hands clench at his sides showing obvious signs of an internal power struggle, but I can't bring myself to walk away just yet. I want to know where this is about to go. I want him to show me something, anything to convince me to stay.

"Damn it Rosemary!" I don't have time to react as Dave's fist flies by my head, connecting hard with the wall behind me.

"Get the fuck away from her!" Kurt's eyes are almost as wide as mine are when he walks in the bedroom with Frances in his arms. "What the fuck were you thinking man? You almost hit her!" Kurt stares at his drummer waiting for a reasonable excuse to come out of the twenty four year olds mouth, but when the room stays silent, he turns his attention to me. "Come on."

My eyes dart between Kurt's angry blue orbs to Dave's regret filled brown ones before side stepping closer to the singer.

The world around me slows down, and I can feel my hands shake from adrenaline as I stare at the hole in the once solid wall. Dave is guilt-ridden, eyes closed as his hands are once again clenched at his side, but this time due to shame rather than anger.

"What the hell was that?" Shelli voice is shrill with panic as I close the bedroom door behind me. The older woman had rushed out of the nearby bathroom in only a towel, Krist right behind her with a confused expression on his face.

Kurt and I exchange a silent conversation with our eyes, debating whether or not to inform the couple of what had taken place in the room behind us. As a form of strength, the floppy haired man beside me intertwined his hand through mine before speaking up, "Dave got pissed a punched a wall."

They don't need to know the truth.

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Alright ladies and gents, never in a million years would I ever see David Grohl doing this. However, for the sake of this storyline this (like the Eva situation) needed to happen.

Rose accepted the poor treatment (physical, mental, and emotional abuse) that came from dating Wyatt in the past. She has a bad habit of accepting men like this into her life and currently, Dave is going through a shit ton of internal struggles which vary from his band member being in love with his fiancé, Rose constantly lying to him and shutting him out, his now confusing relationship with Jennifer, and Kurts (basically his boss!) negative talk about him.

DAVE DOES NOT KNOW WHAT HE IS DOING! Do not hold this against him later on. Rather than thinking things out, he is acting on impulsive fear. This was basically just another driving force to push Rose closer to Kurt and it's life way of teaching Rose a valuable life lesson.

Without Kurts impact, she would not be the person she is in the present, and she would not have the ending that she will eventually have.

If you have any questions please feel free to ask!

xoxo KC