[COMPLETED] still on my mind (forthbeam's story)

SPECIAL CHAPTER

Forth's PoV

I laid down at the bed as my hand holding the small polaroid photo , a stranger gave me today ..

a stranger that totally looked familiar to me ..
a stranger that has a damn similar face to the love of my life ..
a stranger that brought back all the memories 20 years ago ..

are you playing on a joke to me, Beam ?

there's too much thought and question running on my mind right now , i dont want to feel like that either , i mean that's just ridiculous, my heart beats faster when i saw a university student , that maybe 20 years younger than me , i'm not that crazy you know ..

just because he has the same exact face like Beam , it doesnt mean that it's my Beam ..

ah forget it .. i should've not thinking about that kid ..

he's not Beam ..

i walked next to my table and threw the photo to the trash can , then i turned off the lamp and sleep ..

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the very next day , i cursed and laughed at my stupid self , i found myself drove nowhere near my office , but to my University instead , i parked my car near my faculty , and waited for no one in particular , i also didnt know who am i waiting for ..

okay .. i want to see that kid again ..

i called Tine , to handle all of the office matters today , he sounded so worried , i never left my work , well maybe just once or twice when i got sick and hospitalized, he made sure that i was okay , i told him i'll come to the office at noon

i spent almost an hour stayed inside my car , waiting the kids that passing by , i met him at the auditorium, would he be there now at this hour ? should i come there and probably mistaken as a lecturer here , i was contemplating whether should i get out from my car or not , i'm not a 20 years old student anymore ..

ah whatever ..

just when i passed the engineering faculty , someone called me

"khun Forth !" a kid ran towards me and wai

he wore a blue jacket , he must be an engineering student , i didnt really remember him but i smiled "you know me ?"

"i was the one that got the scholarship this year from your company khun Forth .. my name is Ming .." the kid introduced himself

"oh !!!! right right ! i'm sorry , i forgot na , you all wear the same blue jacket .. " i tapped his shoulder

"it's alright khun Forth .. " Ming continued "and do you have something matter here khun Forth ? i already saw your car since hour ago .."

i really wanted to drown myself in atlantic ocean , i gave him an awkward smile , i just cant tell him

'oh , i'm going here because i want to stalk someone who's 20 years younger than me because he has similar face to my late boyfriend..'

are you crazy Forth ? No !

this Ming kid still waiting for me to answer , he looked like an obedient puppy that waiting for his master to throw the frisbee

i sighed "uhmm .. i actually want to see someone here .. but i dont know where he is .."

Ming seemed confused , well , who wouldn't tho ?

"mmm .. is he an engineering student khun Forth ? " he asked me

i shook my head "well .. i dont know him , but i think he's not an engineering student .. i dont know which faculty he's in , i only know his name is Beam.."