how do i tell you, i love you? [ moon byulyi x kim seokjin ]

prologue

he realizes it.

it's been two and a half weeks after the worldwide handsome had finally figured out his feelings;

he 

likes

moon byulyi.

by the thought of it, seokjin couldn't help but throw the pillow beside him into the floor, grumbling. how have he gotten himself into that mess? he was not aware of his feelings growing in a manner that he can no longer sleep properly without waiting for her response whenever they converse.

he's on a different country, their timelines would be different.

she'll be up by their night time, and vice versa.

yet - he keeps on pressuring himself to stay up just to talk with her.

and what could've been the best reason for that? he's madly in love with the female rapper. and he hates it to the bones. he knows how much risky it'll be to like someone who was just supposed to be his friend, but he couldn't avoid it.

he haven't realized it back then when they started their friendship, but she looks like a porcelain doll with her small yet red lips and big doe eyes, her small face aligned with her neck and beautifully carved collarbones, her curves... well - for short, he was finished. 

but what made him fall for her was her attitude, out-going personality and lively existence alone. as if she was a virus, every time that she would laugh, he'll automatically let a smile curl upon his lips, joyous at how she could emit a happy energy whenever she's around.

he keeps on speaking before about his love for females who lazily dresses up for every single event, not expecting that someone would fit his description for all of his ideal liking. 

grunting, the idol turns back to face the curtains.

he did not want to leave the bed if he would just spend the day wondering if he will ever let byulyi know, or- if she would ever like him back as well. she seems to be into someone these days, she seems to be glowing happily even if they were not seeing each other.

it leaves a small pang in his heart, cursing at how lucky that guy would that be.

maybe if he didn't like her... maybe if-

you have one message.

his eyes immediately widen, stumbling to grab his phone from the night stand to see another text from the female idol. by that, all of his insecurities melted away, once again.

byulyi: good morning jinnie ~

seokjin stares blankly into the message that was sent to him. his heart- it keeps on beating loudly, just by thinking that she had already memorized the time setting in every places that he goes for. lingering back, it was already two in the morning back in korea!

he couldn't help but overthink about as his heart swells. 

jinnie: yah, it's already past two there.

byulyi: yeah, just finished my schedule.

jinnie: shouldn't you sleep?

he clicks his tongue. good lord, he wanted to talk to her for such a long time, but he knows that she's tired, and that she needed rest. just by the thought of her texting him instead of going straight to sleep, made him wonder if he's anything special to her. 

months ago, the two of them started talking each other outside of the group conversation, their conversations privately were more active now compared to the '92 line. just by thinking of it, he couldn't help but feel that byulyi cares for him.

but he sometimes wishes that it'll be more than just a friend.

now, she wasn't replying. maybe she was indeed asleep. seokjin purses his lips in disappointment, although he knew that she needs to rest. he'll just stay up later to talk to her, maybe. but then, his phone rang all of a sudden that made his eyes go wide.

picking it up, he saw the caller ID:

byulie

his heart skips a beat, unsure if she had just accidentally clicked on it or if she really wants to talk to him by the voice. letting two seconds pass by, seokjin couldn't stay still- he already slid the icon to answer her call. "hey." he was the first to initiate the greeting, trying to suppress his smile as he heard her breathing on the other line. 

seemingly busy, he patiently waited for byulyi.

"sorry, i was washing up." byulyi replied softly on the other line, as he chuckled. "it's fine, what made you call?" he asks, keeping his lips curled downwards. at the moment, he looks stupid on trying to avoid giddiness to go through his body. he heard her pause for a while, before she chuckles. "are you busy?"

god.

that beautiful laugh, she keeps on attacking his heart.

"no, i have just woken up." seokjin chuckles softly, before he heard her snort. "i'm just about to sleep, you know."

"are you sleeping, by now?"

byulyi clicks her tongue, "maybe in a few minutes?"

stop.

please, stop.

seokjin squeezes through the sheets as he held back his hearty laugh. "want me to talk to you until you fall asleep?" he heard her laugh on the other line. "still the greasy old jin, right?"

"mm," he hums with a smile, "fine then, talk to me." he heard her shift into the bed. "what do you want to talk about, then?"

the way they talked for almost an hour about everything and nothing, it was more than satisfying for seokjin. yet, his heart could not stay still even for a second, whenever he would hear her small giggles and hearty words. she keeps on reminding him on why he should stay infatuated with the female, yet he wasn't - he thinks that he must've been in love.

he heard her yawn all of a sudden, as he whispers. "it's three in the morning there."

she giggles softly, "yeah, i'll talk to you later on." she whispers, somehow a soothing voice that keeps seokjin's heart strings tugging down. "good night, byulie." seokjin whispers, although he didn't want to drop it.

"nighty, jinnie." she softly bids, yawning once again.

with a gentle laugh, seokjin waited for her to drop the call. 

after a few more seconds, she didn't dropped the call.

why won't she? 

his heart beat never calms down for her.

after a few more minutes, he can now hear her softly snoring.

chuckling softly, seokjin was no longer sure if he wants to hung up or hear her until she wakes up.

he really, really likes her.

but how could he tell her?