Faasla-e-Deewar

Chapter 21

Woh dono ab tak ek dusre ke gale lag kar khare the. Rayah waqtan fa waqtan Nawfal ki kamar par haath pher rahi thi. Kuch der baad usse door hua aur apni ankhe ragarta hua dusri taraf mu kar ke khara ho gaya.

Railing per haath tikaye woh aasmaan ko dekhne laga.
Rayah kuch der uski pusht ko dekhti rahi phir ahista se chalti hui uske saath aa khari hui. Woh kuch nahi boli thi naa hi Nawfal ne use mur kar dekha tha. Woh dono hi khamoshi se wahan khare rahe the.

"Main 5 saal ka tha jab meri family ek accident me mar gayi thi."

Nawfal ne Rayah ko ek dafa bhi dekha bagair kaha tha aur Rayah ka to jese sans hi halak me atak gaya tha.

"Mere maa baap bare behen bhai main hum sab bohat khush the. Hum zada ameer nahi the lekin hum khush the. Lekin ek din sab khatam ho gaya. Woh sab mujhe chor kar chale gaye. Main us din apni behen ke saath ghar per tha jab hume pata chala ke humare bhai aur maa baap ki mout ho gayi he ek car accident me.
Mujhe nahi pata tha ke mout kya hoti hai mout kis cheez ka naam tha. Bas yeh yaad tha ke Zareen baji bohat zor zor se ro rahi thi aur main unke saath lipta bagair wajah jaane roye jaa raha tha. Phir maine un teeno ki maiyat dekhi to mujhe pata chala ke mout kya hoti hai. Tab mujhe samjh ayi ke mout ek aisi neend he jisse koi nahi jaag ta..."

Uski ankho me ansu ubhare hue the woh bamushkil unhe behne se rouk raha tha. Rayah kisi sakte ke aalam me use tuk tuk dekhe jaa rahi thi. Use samjh nahi aa raha tha ke woh kya kahe kya puche.
Phir ahista se Rayah ne apna mu khola.

"T..tumhari..behen kahan..he?"

Uske dimag me aya woh ek sawaal uske mu se fori nikla tha aur Nawfal ne apni ankhe zor se band ki thi jese apni takleef ko sehna chah raha ho jese apne us dard ko andar hi peena chah raha ho.
Rayah ko yak dam ehsaas hua jese shayad yeh kisi bhi sawaal ke liye sahi waqt nahi tha. Nawfal ne apni ankhe ahista se kholi aur bola.

"Maar diya use."

Rayah ko pata nahi chala tha kab uski ankho se ansu zameen pe jaa gira tha. Woh mazeed sakte me jaa chuki thi.

"Mere maa baap ka accident bhi karwaya gaya tha aur jinho ne karwaya tha unke plan ke mutabik usme sari family ko hona chahiye tha lekin wahan meri behen aur main nahi the. Us accident ke do din baad hi raat ke waqt kuch log aye the meri behen ne ghabra kar mujhe bed ke neeche chupne ko keh diya woh khud wahin khari rahi lekin woh log kuch der me hi andar ghus aye aur....aur meri behen ko utha kar le gaye.....m..mujhe nahi pata unho ne uske saath kya kiya lekin jab woh wapis ayi to naa uski sanse chal rahi thi naa uski ankhe khul rahi thi...uska jisam k..khoon se bhara..hua tha. Khoon ka samandar mere samne tha main us khoon ke samandar me doob gaya tha Rayah....main ...mujhe nahi pata unhe main kyun nahi mila main unhe kyun yaad nahi aya lekin woh us bache ko jeete jee maar ke chale gaye the.
Woh panch saala bacha jisne apne maa baap behen bhai ko ek saath khoo diya tha jo kuch samjh nahi paa raha tha woh kahin khone laga tha. Woh kayamat si lambi raat us bache ko har lamha bata ke guzri thi. Main dar ke maare baji ke kareeb se hat bhi nahi paya..."

Rayah ke dil me Nawfal ke naam ke liye sawaal aye the lekin usne kabhi usse pucha nahi tha ke uske naam ke saaath Haider ke bajae Khawar kyun tha. Kyun ke Use laga tha shayad yeh Zawaar Khawar Khan ke naam se liya gaya Khawar tha. Nawfal ke mu se siskiyan nikli thi aur Rayah ne najane kese apne aap ko khara kar rakha tha.

Uska dil kar raha tha woh Nawfal ko gale laga kar zor zor se rone lage. Itna kuch usne saha tha? Itna kuch. Aur use aaj tak kuch nahi pata tha woh use is baat ka taana tak de chuki thi ke uski zindagi perfect hai? Use jese sharmindagi hone lagi thi.

"...Phir...khuda ne ek farsihte ko meri zindagi me bheja....ammi...woh hi thi jinho ne mujhe aur meri baji ko us ghar me sabse pehle dekha tha.
Humara ghar shayad unke hospital ke raaste me aata tha ...main nahi jaan ta lekin woh thin jinho ne mujhe apne aap se lagaya tha. Aur main...unke gale lagte hi rone laga. Woh dara hua bacha jo khouf ke maare ro tak nahi paya tha use unho ne apne andar chupa liya tha. Mujhe apne ghar hi nahi apne dilo me jagah di apna beta kaha hi nahi banaya bhi. Bibi jaan Daa ji Baba Azaan Palwasha shayad koyi bhi nahi tha us ghar me jisne mujhe kabhi yeh ehsaas dilaya ho ke me unka hissa nahi. Unka khoon nahi. Un sab ne us bache ko apne khandaan ka hissa bana liya jiske apne khandaan wale use barbaad karne ko taiyar the. Mera bach jaana aur Zawaar Khaan ke ghar chale jana shayad unki barbaadi ki shuruwaat thi. Woh wahan mere saath kuch nahi kar sakte the aur ye baat woh bohat ache se jaante the."