Not What I Expected

Part 11

He loved Nicole and loved that she was the mother of his child, but he didn't know if he was in love with her anymore. He was so ashamed of himself for leading her on and thinking that he wanted to fight for their marriage when he really wasn't sure anymore. He had avoided her and his son for the last three weeks because he didn't know what to say to them. He knew that he would have to come clean sooner or later, but he dreaded the moment when he finally did sit Nicole down and tell her that their marriage was over.

He smiled when he saw Anna peek her head through the doorway. She smiled at him and wiggled her eyebrows at him and giggled quietly before strutting into the bedroom in a sexy little number. Her blond hair fell loosely down her back and her blue eyes shone with deviance. Chad put his book down and ran his tongue over his lips before smiling at her and patting the bed beside him.

"Get over here baby," he groaned, "It has been a long day."

Anna giggled and jumped on the bed landing beside him. She looked up at him sweetly and batted her eyelashes at him. She leaned up and pressed her full lips against his, kissing him softly, deepening the kiss with each passing second. He wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her on top of him as he slowly moved his tongue inside her mouth. She moaned as his large hands travelled down her body.

Chad was crazy about Anna, but he couldn't be sure if he was in love with her or if he was just lusting over her. She was incredibly sexy and an amazing seductress and he was putty in her hands. He wondered if it was worth throwing away his marriage for whatever this was with Anna.

"When are you going to leave Nicole?" Anna mumbled against his lips, "You said you would, but why haven't you done it yet?"

There it was, Chad thought, the moment was ruined. He pushed her off of him and got out of bed, pulling on his sweat pants and storming down the hall to the kitchen. He pulled a glass out of the cabinet and poured himself a glass of whiskey and swallowed it in one go, the hot liquid coating his throat and warming up his insides. Why did she have to push him? Why couldn't she just let things play out as they should?

"What is your problem?" Anna demanded as she stormed into the kitchen with a robe wrapped around her, "I deserve to know what the hell is going on!"

"Sweetheart, you have no idea what is going on inside me right now," Chad shot back as he turned around and looked at her with fire in his eyes, "I'm crazy about you, but you don't understand the gravity of what you are asking me to do. You are asking me to destroy my marriage, to rip apart my family. This is a pretty big decision."

Anna stopped in her tracks as she let Chad's words sink in. While he waited for Anna to process and come up with a response he poured himself another glass and downed it just as fast, if not faster, as the first. He wished he could close his eyes and go back to the day before the party that started all of this. He would have done things so much differently. If only that could be done.

"I'm sorry Chad," Anna whispered as she walked up to him and ran her hands up his chest, "I know I've put you in a difficult situation. I won't push you about it anymore. I just...I love you Chad and I don't want to wait much longer to start my life with you."

He stared at her for a moment unable to put words together to give her a response. He was pretty sure he just heard her say that she loved him and he was absolutely sure that he could not say those words back to her just yet. He wanted Anna, but he wanted Nicole and Hudson, his old life, just as much. But as they say, he couldn't have the best of both worlds and he was sure that his chance with Nicole was slowly running out.

"Love me," Anna whispered before she pressed her lips against his, "Please Chad."

An absolute professional in seduction, Chad thought as he closed his eyes and allowed himself to forget for a little while. He ran his hands down her body and lifted her up onto the counter, pushing up her robe.