Desolation (MYG)

Chapter 1

The sun is shining bright today, which has not been the case for the past 9 days. The sky has been dull and gloomy all week, rain occurring every now and then. Today seems like an unusual day altogether, in terms of the weather; positively but in terms of your life; You're not really sure.

You're hoping things take a turn today, for good. It has been 7 months and 13 days now since your husband started acting differently, at first you thought he was stressed because of his upcoming promotions of the new album he just released but now you don't know if that's the case anymore. He's been staying out way past midnight, sometimes he doesn't even come home for an entire night for 3 months now and when you ask if everything is okay or where he has been, he gets annoyed and either screams at you or grunts and leaves the room.

How things are gonna work out is hard for you to understand right now, but you're hoping with all your heart that you both can work through this.

Currently, it's 9 AM and from what it looks like, he didn't come home last night after being out the entire day as well. You think it's best if you get out of bed and make some breakfast because you haven't had anything to eat since yesterday afternoon. You think of making some chocolate chip pancakes to tend to your starving stomach.

As you make your way over to the kitchen, there's a buzz-like sound from near the front door. You walk over to the screen which is connected to the security cameras outside and realise that it's Yoongi who buzzed so you press the button that opens the main gate and let him inside. You walk back inside the kitchen as you hear the door open and shut signalling that he's here. He enters the kitchen and without saying a word goes straight to the refrigerator, takes out some juice, pours it in a glass and sits on the stool behind the kitchen counter. Even though both of you have known each other for eleven years and have been married for four years now, suddenly, you feel awkward around him and you don't know if you should start a conversation or just stay quiet and do your work.

After going back and forth for two minutes in your mind, you go against your awkwardness and decide to speak up, "Hey, I'm making chocolate chip pancakes, do you want some?" not knowing how to bring up the fact that he has come back after disappearing for almost 20 hours.

He replies with a short and quick "no" and walks out leaving the half-full glass of juice on the counter. You feel self-conscious and sad but angry all at the same time, it feels like he hates your existence so much that he doesn't even wanna be in the same room as you.

You calm yourself down and follow him outside in the living room. He's sitting on the couch, doing something on his phone. You take a deep breath as you decide to confront him for the fifth time in these seven months, "Yoongi" You say with shakiness in your voice as you feel like you're going to break down any moment now. He looks up at you, uninterested as ever, "yeah?" he says.

"I know every time I ask you, you always say it's nothing or you scream at me but I can't do this anymore," You say firmly, gaining new confidence with your rising anger. He looks at you and raises an eyebrow as if signalling for you to continue.

"It's like I don't have any respect in your eyes anymore, you stay out for 20 hours at once not informing me when you leave and not telling me where you've been when you decide to come back. I don't even feel like I'm a part of this relationship anymore, I don't even feel like we're married anymore. Honestly, either you tell me what's up or I'm gonna have to do something I don't want to." You take a deep breath after finishing your rant and you look at him to see that same look of lack of interest that has been a constant for a while now and it makes you sigh.

You turn around to leave the room and go upstairs when he speaks up, "I can't do this anymore" and your heart stops for a moment. You turn around and look at him, "W-What do you mean you can't do this anymore, Yoongi?" You say in a faint voice.

"I can't carry on like this, with this guilt. Feelings we have for people change over time and we can't help it. I'm sorry that this is happening but I shouldn't be sorry for how I feel right now" he says, breaking your heart into thousand little pieces. Tears threaten to fall from your eyes as you manage to speak "can you be more clear please?" You know what he's about to say, but you want to hear it out loud from his mouth. He stammers "I-uh"
and you say loudly "You what, Yoongi?"

"I found someone else".

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Author's Note

Well, that was a heavy first chapter haha. I'm gonna try and make the coming chapters longer.

I really hope you guys like my story, please like and comment what you think so that I can make this a better experience for you.

Thanks and loads of love!

Cherry.