THIS STORY IS BASED ON THE AUTHOR'S IMAGINATION WITH A MIX OF WHAT HAPPENED IN HER REALITY.
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I am an Engineering student but I am bad at mathematics.
Sa totoo lang I was once good in mathematics until inayawan ko na and I eventually became bad at it. I joined so many contests during elementary and although natatalo ako, okay lang kasi natalo ko naman yung mga higher and lower grades sa school namin.
We signed for inter-school MTAP competition and at our last day, they tested us of what we learned all throughout that 2 months. I was having a mental break down dahil 3/4 lang ng questions yung nasagot ko. Most of it, I did mentally. Turns out, halos walang nasagot yung mga higher grades despite being the ones na natutukan on those topics. I was just in 4rd grade that time. I won.
During quiz bees and exams, I invent my own formula based on how we get the answers. As long as I know the concepts I am sure as hell that I will get the right answer.
High school math wasn't hard for me either. It's just the teachers who have favoritism that made it hard for me to get nice grades. I was even included in the list who performed badly despite of never having a failing exam or quiz. I have lots of recitations even.
There were a few times where I was able to beat my classmates who are all monsters when it comes to mathematics and I was so proud. It didn't crossed my mind that I can.
Crushes?
I had a lot. They all have distinct facial features and behavior. I have a pattern of crushes.
Yung last na crush ko is an engineering student too. Former crush? Parang ganon. Nag level up na. Hindi ko na kasi crush lang. Gusto ko na. Gustong gusto.
He happened to be good at math and always prioritized his studies. Lumalandi man, nag-aaral pa rin ng mabuti. As for me, never mind haha.
Pero eto na nga. Nangyari nalang isang araw na sobrang na-insecure ako sa kabobohan ko sa math. Bilang engineering student, I should have the skills. Dati naman ayoko na. Ngayon, sa sobrang kagustuhan ko lang na wag syang madisappoint, I told myself that I should get good grades in calculus especially that I failed last semester.
Yep this is a story of me, na nagbalik loob sa mathematics just because of my crush.
