paranoia

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it's hard to be alright
when you don't know what's
going on in other people's minds
it's almost scary like
how do I know if that person truly likes me?
they probably hate me
even if I try to be nice
they might still hate me
maybe they're out to get me
should I continue to be nice?
or should I be cold like a snake?
I wish I could crawl into people's minds
get myself cozy until their thoughts
make me wanna die

it's so hard when you're not the favorite
when you don't have enough to make you feel secure
it's hard to live a good life
when you don't know who's on your side
when you feel so alone
it's so hard to be living in a lonely world

sober while everyone else isn't
can be isolating
knowing you just can't be like that
yet you feel like you're missing out
I'm just trying to get on with my life
just trying to survive
'cause if I ever did that
I think I'd wind up dead
I probably seem lame
but I'll do anything to save my life

it's hard when you're alone
never being close to people
'cause you're scared to be with them
it's hard when no one likes you
when you're so alone
it's just so hard to live in a lonely world

this is all my fault
I fuck everything up
if I wasn't paranoid
maybe I'd have some friends
but wouldn't you be paranoid too?
I just wanna live a normal life
but nothing seems normal anymore
I just don't wanna be alone anymore




📸: taken in Venice

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