Two Can Play {Complete}

End Game Part I.

"Ow!" I screamed in pain. That's all I remembered until I woke up in a hospital bed. It must have happened again. I must have collapsed.

I opened my eyes and looked up at the sealing. I glanced to my left and saw my mother sitting in a chair next to me reading a book.

I was surprised. One, because I never told her I was pregnant. Nobody knew except for Jay and LeBron. Secondly, she had to take a four hour flight from Houston to get here. That means I was knocked out for awhile.

"Momma!" I called for her. She immediately turned to look at me and smiled. She closed her book and stood up to sit on the edge of the bed.

"Hey baby! How are you feeling?" Tina grabbed my hand and used her other to caress my cheek. She kissed my forehead and waited for me to answer.

"Im alright. Im just feeling tired. What happened? Did I pass out again?" I bombarded her with questions.

"Yes sweetie. According to what Jay told me. The doctor said you started complaining about the pain and just passed out on her," Tina shook her head. She was so worried about me. Her motherly intuition creeped up a few days ago. She meant to call her eldest daughter but got caught up in meetings that day.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you I was pregnant," I apologized. Momma immediately shook her head.

"Baby, it's alright. I understand. I'm not mad. I'm glad you're alive, but I'm sad about the loss of my grand baby," she teared up.

"Me too Momma. I'm devastated," I teared up myself. This is the worst feeling in the world. I don't wish this on anybody. "Where's Jay?" I questioned her.

"He went out to grab lunch. He's taking it hard!" Tina revealed. "He wanted to be there to comfort you once you found out," she continued.

"It's okay... I told him not to come. I told him to go to his meeting," I shook my head.

Jay eventually came back from lunch. He and my mother stayed with me all day until I was discharged that evening.
My body had started the process of expulsion, causing the pain to be so unbearable. The doctors gave me a lot of pain medication, which helped a lot but it had me very groggy. I was so out of it. Apparently I was awake a few times throughout the day. I even had conversations with the two of them, but I just don't remember.

To speed up the miscarriage, the doctor performed a D&C, also known as a Dilation and Curettage. This procedure removes all of the contents of pregnancy, including the fetus and the uterine lining.

To have to come back home to my two year old and fake like nothing happened was so difficult. I didn't experience this with my other miscarriages since they were before her. I was a Mom now —a title I often forget when I'm out being adulterous. I felt guilty even thinking about leaving my baby.

As soon as I saw Blue, I just held onto her so tight. Even though I was so sad about this loss, I was reminded of this little miracle that had blood in her body and breath in her lungs. She is the miracle that I successfully carried for nine months and birthed naturally. I was thankful. I didn't realize how much I needed this moment. Evidently, Blue needed this moment too. Despite being a busy toddler, she let me hold her for 10 minutes straight without a fuss. She didn't know what happened to her momma, but she could sense something.

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Jay broke the news to Julius, Rita, and the rest of our family. He demanded that they give me my space. In return, people chose to blow his phone up every five minutes. I just laid up under my mother Tina and my other mother, Rita like a little girl.

Tina didn't want to leave me. She insisted on staying an extra day to be with me. I didn't fight her. I was a grown woman, but I still needed my momma.

We had family dinner that night. Our personal Chef made a delicious, three course meal, which gave me a bolt of energy after feeling sluggish all day. Jay was able to make me laugh quite a bit too, reminding me of when we were younger.

We dated a whole year over the phone. The only reason why I kept answering Jay's phone calls at the time was because he was the ultimate jokester. I reminisced on those memories at the dinner table, but then I immediately frowned because of the secret I was keeping from him. I already felt horrible about it, but this miscarriage makes it worse.

"You good baby?" Jay noticed the change in my facial expression.

"Yeah, I'm just super tired!" I lied.

"You and Jay go get some rest. Rita and I will clean up. Blue bear will help. Right?" Tina looked down at Blue who was still finishing her mac and cheese.

"Yes!" she giggled.

"I appreciate it!" Jay told his mother-in-law.

"Thank you Momma! I love you," I said. I got up and gave her, Rita, and Julius a hug and kiss before heading to my bedroom.

I took a quick shower and changed into my pajamas. Jay must have showered in the guest room because he was already in bed with his pajamas on. He looked at me and smiled. He held his arms out, signaling me to come snuggle up against him. I did just that. We laid in silence for awhile until I finally spoke up.

"You've been asking me how I've been feeling all day. I want to know if YOU'RE okay," I confessed while I laid on his chest. His chest fell as he sighed deeply.

"I'm trying to be strong for you, but I'm fucked up!" Jay replied truthfully.