Hiding The Mafia's Son

Chapter 17

SOMETIMES, it is best to be blind and stay ignorant about something to be less hurt. But I also know that it doesn't apply to everything, especially when there is a life at stake. Kasi kung bulag ka, mamamatay ka ng walang kalaban laban. Papatayin ka na lang hindi mo pa alam. Protecting yourself from further pain is good but not to a point that you let yourself bare to any harm and anyone could take advantage of it. Protection is different from stupidity. 

Buong buhay ko naka-focus lang ako sa mga bagay na nakasakit sa akin. Mas pinagtutuunan ko ng pansin kung paano sisihin ang mga taong naging dahilan ng paghihirap ko. Iniisip na kung hindi dahil sa kanila ay naging iba siguro ang takbo ng buhay ko. Baka iba ang naging tadhana ko.  Pero hindi pala dapat ganun. Hindi dapat ako manatiling nakatali sa sakit. Yes, I already accepted my past. But I haven't let go of the pain. I mean, I already accepted the fact that what happened already happened. There's nothing I can do to change it. But it doesn't mean I am not hurt. I have all the right to be hurt. But I am doing everything to let go of the pain too. Because blaming those scumbags will get me nowhere. Mas babagal lang ang pag-usad ko. 

The more I keep coming back, the more I will get hurt. The more I think I am hurting, the more I will blame everything to my past. And that past includes the man I slowly get comfortable with. The most absurd thing is that, I am trusting him. Gradually.

I learned one thing though.

When something bad happens to you, all you have to do is to accept it. Acceptance does not mean you have to forget what had happened. But to calm your weary heart. Acknowledge the pain you feel not to suffer even more but to look for the good purpose meant to your life.

Everything that happen in your life is important. May it be good or bad. It's up to you if you focus more on the pain, sacrifices and sufferings or value more the cause of that pain, sufferings and sacrifices which will make you stronger and more resilient in the coming storms. Manipulate life and that could only happen if you have the life of your choosing.

Hindi lahat inaasa sa tadhana at swerte. 

Life is about being wise not being smart.

Bakit?

Because life is not a school wherein you can be labeled as smart if you memorized your notes, the every slides and every word your teacher have said.  Ang buhay ay hindi eskwelahan na pwedeng hindi mo na intindihin ang mga leksyon dahil pwede mo na lang kabisaduhin ang lessons. Hindi eskwelahan ang buhay na magdedepende kung saan ka komportable. Na pwede kang magreklamo kung sumusobra na ang teachers mo. Hindi eskwelahan ang buhay na sa pagdating ng panahon ay hindi na estudyante ang mag-aadjust kundi ang mga teachers. Mas lalong hindi eskwelahan ang buhay na pwede kang magcheat. Pwede kang magnakaw ng mga bagay na natutunan ng iba. Ang buhay ay hindi nadadala sa kopyahan kapag nahihirapan o tinatamad ka. Hindi nadadala sa commissions kapag hindi mo na kaya.

Ang buhay ay buhay. Tuturuan ka ng mga leksyon na hindi mo pwedeng kabisaduhin lang. Ang aral na itinuturo nito ay tatatak at tatagos sa puso mo. Maitatanim ng kusa sa isipan mo. 'Yon ang aral na magbubunga ng mga bagay na hindi mo aakalaing makukuha at matututunan mo. Mga aral na hindi mo na kailangan pang basahin ng paulit-ulit for a review sa tuwing nakakalimutan. Pero pwedeng maibahagi sa iba. Ang buhay walang removal. Walang readmission test. A mistake is a mistake. A failure is a failure. 

Ang buhay ay hindi mo maiintindihan kung hindi mo mismo mararanasan.

School will teach you the process to be strong but life molds you to become stronger and bolder.

Wise is a product of experience that makes you durable while smart is just a process of learning that can only make you knowledgeable. See the vast difference. Don't confuse the two.