Am I not enough???

Chapter 14

Continued...

Hearing those words being confirmed hurt, they hurt a lot.

My child was gone because of my mistakes. 

When he found out, I don't know, he looked like he wanted to kill me. He actually beat me so bad I was in a coma for 3 weeks.

I'm still with him. Stupid, I know but it's not like I can just leave. I'm too scared to.

Right now I'm just sitting alone on this park bench, just thinking about my life and everything I've been through.

I find myself wondering, "is it worth it?" "Is it worth it to carry on living this miserable life?"

Tbh I don't know. I don't think it is but something is tell me it's not my time yet.

Interrupting my thoughts, I heard someone sit next to me.

It was the girl I met a few weeks ago at the mall.

"Hey"

"Hi" I replied back not really wanting to engage in a conversation right now.

"I'm Nicki btw, I saw you in the mall a couple weeks ago"

"Yh hi, I'm Beyoncé but people call me bey"

"That's a beautiful name, i thought I would hear from you" she chuckled.

"Yh I'm sorry about that, I've been real busy"

"I love your accent, I can tell you not from 'round here"

"Nah, I'm actually from Houston, Texas. I moved here 2 years ago with my boyfriend"

I saw her facial expression change when I said that. Her huge smile slowly fell off her face but was quickly replaced with a fake one shortly after.

"Oh, that's cute. So what are you doing sitting here alone."

We talked for a while and I found myself enjoying her company so much I lost track of time.

I got up running all the way home.

I'm a dead woman walking.