Her Game (Chat Series#2)

Chapter 11

Jheryl Pov.
11th day
October 19 , 2019

Three days of moving on but still miss him , miss our chat , i stalk him every time i online and i react on what he post , nagmumukha na akong stalker , hindi pala ako nagmumukha kasi mukha na talaga akong stalker , mga pictures niya sinave ko sa gallery and every time na maalala ko siya Napapangiti ako at the same time nasasaktan , napag-isipan kung mag post ng my day stories umaasa na ma notice niya ang pinost ko .

'Tragic , maybe that's our story 😢'

Tragic talaga dahil alam ko namang malabo kaming magkatuluyan kasi di pa nga namin nakikita ang isa't isa ehh tapos malabo atang magkatagpo kami sa dinami dami ba namang tao dito sa mundo malabong magkabanggaan kami pero kapag kami talaga ang tinadhana , kami talaga dahil destiny will always be a destiny and that's what i pray about that he is my destiny but i know it's impossible to happen because i know that our feelings ng isn't mutual  , ako lang naman kasi ang nagkagusto eh  , malabo talagang maging kami nakakalungkot lang na ang aking mga ngiti noon ay napilitan na ng pighati at pagkabigo , this is it i should accept the truth that he's not mine and could never be and accept the truth that our story is tragic cause he's not destined to be mine and I'm not destined to be him .

'Hope? Hopeless Romantic .'

I am hopeless romantic cause i think that he felt the same way but I'm wrong cause he's , he still love his ex-girlfriend  and it's hurt when he can't respond my feelings cause what i said he still love ve his ex , i should accept this maybe not now but soon .

'Hanggang back read na lang talaga ako .'

Yeah , hanggang back read lang talaga ang peg ko and i realize na ang desperda ko pala nagmumukha na talaga kong reporter and take note ako lang ang nagpapatakbo sa aming chat hayys i should stop this feeling of mine , I'm not happy of this situation i want to forget all about him but how can i ? When my mind thinks only from him .

'This feeling is new from me , i don't feel it before 😢😅."

This feeling is new from me kasi hanggang like lang kasi ako noon at hindi kailanman lumagpas aa love  eh i think I'm falling , falling to a man who have no intention to catch me , lunod na lunod na ako and i don't know  paano babangon ulit na wala siya sa buhay ko .

'Stay  , that i want you to do .'

And love me back that's i want you to do but i  should now my limitation and accept the fact that he's no longer beside me .

'Nakaya ko ngang mabuhay in my whole life without you noon paano pa kaya ngayon.'

I'm still breathing and alive before i know him and i live without him in my life before , paano pa kaya ngayon pero tiyak na mahihirapan ako kasi ang puso ko ay ninakaw na niya he stole my heart , nakapasok siy sa puso ko and he have no intention to return it back .

'Lumalamig ang gabi hindi na tulad ng dati .'

And it's impossible to back that time , i remember the days laying in my bed while typing , composing the next topic and smiling like an idiot . midnight bit still awake and we still chatting goshh i   miss that routine i want it to back .

'Ah hanggang dito na lang ba talaga?'

I ask that question cause he's active but he don't even chat me maybe it's the time that i should give cause it fast 12:44  AM in the midnight but he don't even bother to chat me , it is the time that i should give up my love on him cause I'm tired really really tired , tired of chasing someone who doesn't appreciate what i did .

To be continue .....