Can I Get His Love?

42. Appa!!

Stupid.. Every one is thinking that you already had an affair before marriage.. But your husband accepted you.. Now if u go for him.. Then how can u face him?? What will society call you??

Suddenly rakesh took the cloth from my hands.. I looked at him then lowered my head.

"What happened?? What is bothering you now??" he asked me.

What can i say?? What will he think of me if i say that iam thinking about my past love?

"Is it about last night dream.? . " he asked suddenly

My eyes widened hearing that. I looked at him.

"Is he the one you loved?? " he asked me with gentleness..

How come he know about my dream??

"is it sriram??" he asked again.

I nodded.

Now he will think that.. Iam still in love with sriram.. What else will anyone think.. When after marriage if you get dreams about past love.. That too crying in dreams for him..

"Can i ask u some thing?? " he asked looking directly into my eyes..

I know.. You will ask me.. Whether i still love him or not..

"why you both didnt marry??" he asked me with tense voice.

Because he never wanted it.. Iam not a person for love..

"If u are not comfortable to share with me.. Its okay" he said and waited..

I looked down and whispered "he said its not love"

"I didnt get u.. "

"its just me.. Who loved him.. He never loved me.. He just thought of me as friend" i said a little louder than whisper.

"so.. Its one side love??" he asked. There is a little relief in his voice.

"yes.. Only one sided.." i nodded..

" I thould thank him" he murmered.

I didnt understand why he said like that..

"nothing.. Come for breakfast.. Iam hungry" he said rubbing his stomach. A little smile came on my face at his childish act..

One thing is for sure.. That my love for him is increasing more and more day by day.. Is it wrong to have lots of love for my husband?? No right..

We both went and had our routine breakfast as per our rule of feeding each other.

Now a days.. The uncomfortable feeling between us was decreasing.. Days went like that..

One day i got a call from home that appa is sick.. Rakesh is busy as the date of submission is nearer.. Rakesh asked my parents to come to bangalore as better health facilities will be there.. So i went to my village along with avika to come back with my parents..

Appa disagreed to come to bangalore.. So I took my appa at near by town to underwent checkup.. They ordered ecg, xray and few blood tests..

"2Decho is needed.. Its congestive heartfailure.. We need to know how much does the heart is functioning" doctor said to me after checking the reports..

"iam prescribing medicines for now.. But its better if you get 2Decho done as early as possible..but its not available here in this town" doctor said..

"okay doctor.. Thank you.." i said and left from the cabin..

"what did doctor say?" appa asked me while we are coming back home in auto..