"thank you so much." i say, pulling kelly into a hug. she gives me a small smile, before quickly dismissing me so she can attend to other people.
i raise my eyebrows at grizz, unsure as to why kelly was suddenly so brash with me. however, i shake it off, grabbing his hand to walk off.
he makes sure we're okay to go before pulling me away. i see his quick glance towards becca and sam, making me secure direct eye contact with becca. i don't want her to think i'm ignoring her so i consider whether it's best if i talk to her. on the other hand, grizz seems to want to dash out of the clinic as soon as possible.
i stop and i give grizz an apologetic look as he watches me with sceptical eyes. i tell him i'll meet him outside as i squeeze his hand, and leave his grasp to walk up to becca.
"hey, becca, how are you?" i ask, reaching over her to give her a hug.
"i'm good, thank you," she smiles, nodding appreciatively, "but, how are you? i heard you got sick."
"i did but i'm okay now, i think most people are from whatever happened after thanksgiving," i say, but i find my eyes flicking between sam and becca.
they faces read completely different emotions. becca looks so happy; happier than i've seen anyone in this town recently. whereas, sam looks absolutely distraught. my mind immediately goes to grizz as i think about what grizz told me. sam's going to be a dad and he slept with grizz.
he's going to be a dad.
becca's going to be a mom.
i could have been a mom.
"are you okay?" becca says worriedly, moving her hand from where it was placed on reaching up to put her hand on my arm.
i open my mouth to answer, suddenly feeling panicked, "yes."
"you don't look it," sam signs.
becca face changes and i think she realises. she remembers the supermarket; she remembers my pregnancy test.
she lets out a small gasp, causing me to look at her. every single word i could possibly think of has gone and i'm rendered speechless.
"oh my god," she says sadly, "i'm so sorry."
i shake my head at her, indicating that it really isn't something to get worried over. hypocritically, i'm trying to not cry in this very moment.
"it's not your fault."
"but, i feel bad. i'm pregnant and you could have been," she whispers. "you would have been in the same position as me; we could have gone through it together."
"at least your baby will have a great dad," i smile, looking over at sam. sam looks down sadly and i have a small suspicion that it has something to do with grizz.
becca's lips turn into a smile as she looks between me and sam, "i'm guessing harry was...?"
my back pricks up at his name and i shift uncomfortably, "harry was what?"
"the dad."
i stare at her blankly, "oh... no. he wasn't. you wouldn't have known the dad."
i fall into a deep set of thoughts in this moment as i wonder what harry would be like as a dad. i wonder if he would have wanted anything to do with it; if he'd have rejected the idea of being a father. on the other hand, i wonder if it would make him better mentally. maybe he'd want to make this place better because of his young child, his son or daughter.
i snap out of my thoughts, muttering to becca, "i actually have to go, grizz is waiting for me."
sam's eyes flicker down sadly as i mention grizz and as he looks back up i send him a sympathetic smile, although knowing i'm biased to be on grizz's side as he's one of my best friends.
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blackmail | the society
Fanfictioncamilla the still new-ish girl at school is blackmailed by the one and only harry bingham who has information about her troubled past away in New York. as she can't reveal her true identity she will do anything to keep him from telling, leaving her...