Back track// Ethan Dolan

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Ethans POV

May 2020

     "Hey, I know we haven't see each other or even talk to each other in a while but I want you to know that I've been doing a lot of thinking lately & I want you to know that I miss you. Not that I regret what happened or I want to see you again, just I miss you. Just I miss you. It's so strange to think someone I knew so well is now a total stranger to me, that sometimes I go entire days without thinking about you. Not even a little bit. Most of the time I let myself forget get, because it's easier. Then I find something, a photo, a gift, those stupid love letters we would give to each other. Full weight of what's been lost crushes down on me. Part of me wants to see you again, to hold you again, to kiss you again, but all of those feelings become empty thoughts. I look back now remember in love isn't all that it seems, it's just so easy to forget. But this is a regret, we had our reasoning to end it and they were as valid as ever. But back at the start we didn't need any reasons to fall in love, we just did.

     The reasons came at the end. Everything since then has been about reasons. And that's good, that means all find someone someday that I won't have to say goodbye too. But part of me misses loving someone and having them
Love you back, that's all. I guess what I'll saying is I hope things are good for you, I hope everything is great. I hope you found a love thats all things ours couldn't be. But just a small part of me hopes you still remember what it was like before all the reasons and that you miss me too."

I set back look at my computer screen. I scroll over the send then I quickly move it to the 'x' bottom. I let go and think.