Hidden Feelings

Shattered

1.

My heart is so pure

yet my mind is so troubled.

Damn.

What happened to me?

2.

They say actions speak louder than words

but I say no.

No, that's not true.

Stories are told through words.

Your experience today will be a story to tell tomorrow.

Listen.

Some stories hold important secrets.

3.

How can my world ever be complete when I'm not sure what completes me.

4.

I stared at the broken glass on the floor.

Mesmerized.

It reminded me of my heart.

I found beauty in the destruction

and never picked up the pieces.

5.

Tomorrow always come faster than expected.

Just yesterday I dreamed of today.

6.

I thought my cries were going ignored

until I heard others cry too.

Then I realized,

we all cry.

Sometimes at the same time.

Some stronger than others.

But still.

Someone has to bring the tissue.

7.

My heart got heavier

as my body got lighter.

I was weak.

No strength to eat.

Barely holding on.

8.

When you told me I was beautiful

I thought maybe you had seen my soul.

But it was because you liked my hair.

9.

I told him I had nothing to say

but I lied.

I just knew he wouldn't understand.

Besides,

I barely had enough breath to speak.

10.

What's the use of a heart filled with Gold

tied to a mind consumed in rubble.

11.

I loved you before I met you.

I knew you existed.

I just had to wait.

Now you're here.

How nice it is to finally see your face.

12.

I created my heart to be like a maze.

Forcing others to find their way around with no direction.

Only because sometimes,

I get lost too.

13.

I looked in the mirror and stared at my reflection.

It looked like she wanted to tell me something important.

Maybe next time.

14.

Look into my eyes.

What do you see ?

An Iris filled with color

or a soul filled with pain.

15.

I called you

but you didn't answer.

I started to leave a voicemail

but then I realized I shouldn't have called you.

16.

I don't dream of perfection

I dream of unconditional love.

17.

I stopped looking forward to the sunrise in the morning.

I no longer had to plan my days.

I knew what I would be doing...

Missing you.

Day in and Day out.

18.

You tell yourself that you love yourself dearly

but he knows that you don't.

If you did

he wouldn't exist.

19.

Back at the mirror again.

Still nothing.

20.

I fell so deeply in love

as you sat back and stared from the surface.

I remember telling you to jump in with me

but you said you weren't prepared to get wet.

Neither was I.

21.

Sometimes I think of running away

but she will be there too.

Waiting on me to arrive with open arms.

There's no running from her.

She's everywhere.

Watching my every move.

Judging me.

I looked in the mirror and there she was.

22.

Homesick for a place that I can't remember calling home.

At least not in this lifetime.

But it exists nonetheless.