never did i despise a better idea,
the thought of her made me shake,
i couldn't see it being anything but negative
a massive tornado ready to fuck up our already destroyed town
the final hit before we all lost our minds
she came to us, soft and new
small and needing of protection
a tiny bundle who had already gone through more of her life than she needed,
i was indifferent
but i was already attached
her babydoll eyes stuck themselves onto me
and refused to let out
i fell in love with her for the
half year we had her
heard her first words,
saw her first walks
laughed at every new experience she made faces at
she was a small nail of joy that hammered into my chest,
cracking the hollowed bones of my body
and i let her
she's so small,
almost undetectable,
but her smile could brighten galaxies,
and her laugh will last lifetimes
i always wondered how she could have such a hold on my heart
yet now i don't ever question it.
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