why am i like this?
why do i push and pull people
in so many directions,
dragging them along with the
changes of my mind,
only because i don't have a reign on my own emotions?
i want to be so many things without truly knowing what to do
how is it fair of me to put on
a play for these people
when they never bought a ticket?
pretty smiles can only bring me so far,
and i have none left to give out
why am i like this?
why do i yell to be left alone yet
hate them when they finally do?
why?
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