this is the first time i've written about you in a year
i read those pieces of my heart,
remembering the pain i was trying to mask,
and cannot even being to stomach
how much i'd do for you
i would've moved oceans,
i would've dug into the deepest part of the earth
just to keep you warm
i would've one so much
but the worst thing i did for you
was rip apart my own heart
just to keep you happy
did that stop you from blaming me for what happened?
did that stop you from trying to guilt me to stay with you?
did that stop you from moving on not even a month later?
i was so stuck in the blinding sunset
was was our "love,"
i blamed myself for so much
i didn't want to paint you as the bad guy
in truth, no one was,
but you took my future and
wrote yourself in so many times,
i started to take it as fact
i truly believed you cared about me
i truly believed we'd defy all odds,
you and i,
and make it
i think i was the only one that was in love with a person
you were in love with my love
because you couldn't love yourself
i finally took that back,
and i hope to give it to someone else
so goodbye,
i hope i never
see you again
091319
