I sit here on the cold terrace floor looking up towards the empty starless sky......im alone and for the millionth time i still wanna be alone....
Ive made mistakes...terrible ones...and im not able to fix them. Ive hurt people...people i love...people i cant live without...people who would do anything to see me happy...people who have already crossed limits to see me happy. I hurt them. I broke their trust. I barely had people who i went to in times of need and now they dont trust me. I broke their heart. I broke them....
Im sorry.
I made a choice which seemed right to me...but it hurt them. My choice hurt them....it hurts me now even though its the most beautiful thing to me. My brain tells me its wise to let it go but my heart battles the thought....what's the point, nothing will change....the hurt will remain hurt...the broken will break more.
I will break.
Im sorry.
I look up again and think.....how can a wrong choice make u feel happy?
How can i fix the people i broke?
How can i fix myself after all this is over...if at all it gets over?
I realise my eyes start hurting because ive been staring too long. I close my eyes and i see the faces of all the people ive hurt....i see the choice i made...i try to bring it together in one frame....i try hard...i press my eyes together...nothing happens. I open my eyes and i shiver...the cold wind brushes past my arms and i wrap them around me. I cry silently.
Im sorry.
I really am.
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