Surrounded by darkness.
The night is the time when our deepest feelings comes out. When the love is expressed in its purest of forms, when the heart takes control of the mind, memories stir, everything is quiet. Its when the whole world sleeps, we come in contact with ourselves.
The night is also the time when our deepest fears and the harshest pains bubble up on the surface.
I look around myself. Everything is silent. The world sleeps peacefully, oblivious to my pain.
There is nobody. Nobody to hold me while I cry, nobody...it hurts more than anything. The mere thought that out of more than a billion people in this universe, I was not able to find even one person who would care, who would undersatand or if that was too much to ask, who could just listen.
Exactly an hour to go. ONE hour and i'l be 24. One hour and i'l be with God. One hour and I will be free from this pain.forever.
People who do not know me will say taking your life is wrong. To them I would like to say, try walking in my shoes for an hour, bear this pain for an hour and THEN if you survive we'l talk.
