My Hericane

W A L O

Lisa's POV:
After what happened at the school's gym with jennie i went straight to a convenience store to buy few liquor to drink at our condo unit. The first option is to go and get wasted at the bar but i really don't want people going near me asking if i'm alone or what. I don't need flirts.

  I shouldn't feel anything now. Because i've been hurt for i din't remember how many times.

I've got rejected by people.

Even my family did. But i don't know why this hurts alot. I've only known jennie for like 6 months now but why she makes me feel i wanna die. I feel like i can't live like this. I can't live without her. How did she do that to me? Why do i need to experience this.

I'm drinking alone at my room when bambam open the door holding an empty glass and a box on his hand.

"Do you think i will let you drink alone?" Bambam said and sit beside me. I was sitting at the floor and lean my back at the side of my bed

"Why do i love her like this bam? I shouldn't be like this. When tzuyu and chaeng stab my back i manage to live my life. Without feeling like i wanna kill myself." I said while pouring a drink on his glass

"In life not everyone you love will stay and can give back the love. You know that. I won't ask you how you feel because i know you feels shits all over the things that is happening now. But i know you lisa. You won't make this kill the will of your soul." Bambam said and grab a chicken wings that he bought

"Chicken wings really?" I said

"Yeah why not. I hate chips while drinking."

"I never said this often but Bam i'm really thankful for you being on my side. If i'm alone i don't know what would happen to me."

"Lisa you're like a sister to me you know that. And i won't let anyone to hurt you. You have the most beautiful heart and you deserve to be happy. "

"How am i gonna be happy if she's my happiness?"

"You really love her that much? When tzuyu broke your heart you didn't look like this."

"What do you mean? I'm wasted that time. I was hurt too"

"Yes but not like this. You and tzu dated then she kinda cheated but you were hurt for just like 1 month and you started hooking up with different girls. I saw you cry for her for like 2 times. But now with jennie. You cried for like a hundred times since the first month you tried to pursue her. But you really don't date. And now she rejected you and you want to kill your self. Now tell me that this heartbreak is the same" i look at him and realise what he said. He's right. I fall for jennie too deep. I don't know how to recover myself

"You know what this is strange. I wanna cringe because you're saying this serious things to me. Where is bambam? Who are you" i said and give a small laugh. And i wipe my tears

Okay i look like a crazy person for crying and laughing.

I stop myself for crying and compose myself.

"Your so mean to me" bam said and tried to put chicken in my mouth

"Heeey" i said and grab the chicken he's holding

"How am i gonna show up myself to her? Remember the arts event."

"Well it's simple. Go to school with your camera and go to the event and do you fucking job. Look for her and drag her to an empty room and make her moan." Bambam said smiling

I smack his head and said "hey i'm serious you son of a btch! Hoooow" i said but i got a laugh from him.

"Just joking you idiot hahahaha but if you want to do that i'll help you. " he said and wink

"You pervert!"

"What? Look who's not a womanizer back then. " he said and i pour another shot on my glass

"You know i haven't hold her hand in 6 months of pursuing her. I'll just ignore her. I don't know what to say to her." I face palm

"How are you gonna ignore her if she's the S.O president and you were the president of the arts and photography department? Tell me?"

Bambam said and i just realise that i can't ignore her. We need to communicate because our department is the one who needs help and i don't want to be that rude to her and dean would scold me if she knew that i don't talk the the president.

"What am i gonna do??????? Okay i just don't talk to her if it's not about the event."

"Ohh well good luck to you my friend."

"Why are you like this to me? I'm broken and wrecked by that girl but you seems to be chill about it" i ask him

"Because i can feel that one of this days jennie will make up her mind that she likes you too."

"What are you talking about? Dude she rejected me in front of the whole school. She doesn't want me"

"No. It's not her fault that you got rejected in front of the whole school and to add up on her birthday, its all your fault. Dude you might shocked her. I told you that is not a good idea but you still do it any way."

"But i thought its sweet"

"Yeah it is but you know that she's still not ready to open her self for the possibility of being with a girl." Yeah that right.

"After you walk out the gym i saw how devastated she is. She's so sad. I know that if she could she would run and grab your hand. But i see how she's scared on how all the eyes looking at her."

"I don't know what you're saying bam. You said earlier that not everyone you love will stay and now you're saying were like the opposite. A while ago you want to stop my feelings to jennie and now you're making me hope for the possibilities of us." I'm now confuse.

"Yes but the right one will always stay. And i remember that you said the you feels like she's the one"

"Yeah my heart says that she's the one"

"Then don't stop showing her how much you love her. If you're tired and hurt then take a rest. No one mind if you take a rest but you don't have to stop."

"I don't know..... i don't know...."

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