We've been really quiet... I don't know it's just hard right now. But after awhile I was just thinking about everything... I looked over at Colby and scooted over and put my chin on his shoulder and wrapped my arms around his arm "Hi..." I said as he looked at me. "Hi baby.." He smiled a little. "Are you okay?..." I asked. "Be honest please" I said. He sighed "I honestly don't know (y/n). This is just something very serious.. Baby you're pregnant... It's just hitting me harder than I thought and now that we've both agreed on not keeping it.. It's just hard because I really want a family with you (y/n).." He said. "I-I know you do..." I looked down. "If we were older things would be different... Trust me.. But I just can't.. And it makes me feel so fucking bad..." I started tearing up. "(Y/n) baby listen please" he wiped one of my tears away. "It's okay.. Really" he took my hands. "I completely understand" he hugged me. *time skip*
Things lightened up after a little which is really good because it kept my mind of it. It's just so hard to take in... I'm getting an abortion. Like this is actually happening. God damnit now I want to cry again. This isn't fair. Ugh. *time skip to tomorrow*
"So when is it?" He asked. "Noon.. I need to get ready" I said and sat up. "(Y/n)?.." He asked. I looked over at him. "You're not mad at me about this right?" "What? No babe it's not your fault" I said. "It is. I even didn't think about it at all" he sighed. "Colby it's okay..really... Don't blame yourself for it. Both of us were excited. I'll ask about birth control when I'm there too okay?" "Okay... I'm sorry I didn't pull out" he said which just made me laugh a little. "It's okay.." I said and got up and went to our closet. "I love you" he said. "I love you too" I smiled over at him and got my clothes and went to the bathroom to get dressed. I brushed my hair and teeth and started my makeup.
Colby's p.o.v
Well todays the day... I don't know what to do.. I kinda want to tell someone but I just can't. I promised (y/n) this stays between us... I'm keeping this promise. I can't fuck things up more.. I swear she's dating a fuck up. That's all I am. I can't do anything right... I'm honestly so surprised that she's still with me. I hate to say it but I rather have her date Jake than me sometimes.
~Taylor signing off 👻
