«gone boy» seungjin

They know.

I couldn't hide behind the fake smile any more. It was getting to difficult and they noticed.

They noticed the longing stares I leave on your locker, the sad eyes I give when your name is mentioned.

I was so lost in missing you that I forgot to hide it. I forgot to hide behind the smile I tried to keep since you left, I failed.

I failed miserably and our friends noticed.

I feel like they pity me but don't want to show it, so they try to stay by my side at all times so I'm not lonely, but I'll always be lonely without you.

They also know about my suicide attempt, my mom told them. Felix and jeongin cried and told me how much they need me in their lives and minho hyung and chan hyung were disappointed in me, the others seem to understand why I did it and didn't hold it against me.

I wish you were the one who needed me, who was disappointed with my decision.... understood my pain. But I guess you wouldn't feel anything huh?

Getting lonelier jinnie <3