Watch Me

For years I've stayed in line, living by the system. My whole life they've told me to be myself, yet fit in. What is I don't fit in, what if I don't want to stay in line, you see we are born and we go to school,we go to collage, get married, get a 6am-5pm job, have kids, then die. That's how it should be right? Wrong. I don't want to get a 5am-6pm job, I don't want to follow this stupid rules, since when does the colour of our hair or the amount of piercing we have represent who we are inside. I could have bright purple hair and still be a full time Christian yet society assumes that I'm just a rebel teen. I don't want to follow this stupid rules. I want to be able to express my opinion without being suspended, I want to able to have my own style. When we are put into a school they demand uniforms, they say it's so we look presentable, but the way I see it they are saying that we should all be alike, that we shouldn't stand out.

All my life they've told me I should be like the straight A students the ones that never fight back, but fighting back is my instinct. They brain washed me, told me I would only look pretty and boys will like me if I had natural hair and floral sundresses, they may be very pretty but they're not me. I lived like that for a few solid years making people assume I was a sweetheart who followed everyone's rules, but that's not me. I was born to stand out. I want to fight back so hard that one day my signature becomes an autograph. I want to be heard, I want my ideas to be judged and critizied, I want to be someone. I have said this to a few people and you know what they said, they said that I just wanted to be famous and that it was a phase. They said I'll get over it, but they don't realize how wrong they are, they don't get it. They just don't fucking get it, it isn't about the money, it isn't about the fame, it's all about being someone,

I don't want to fit in, everybody fits in, I want to stand out. I want to be called crazy and I want to be heard. You wouldn't imagine the attention I started getting when I the good all pink girl left her flats and got combat boots, when the girl that only listened to classical started listening to rock bands, when the girl that never fought back, and boy did I fight hard. I'm not done yet, this battle has just begun. When I started painting my nails black my friends started calling me crazy because it was clearly written down in the strict rules you couldn't paint your nails, well I didn't give a fuck, I wanted my nails that color and nobody can tell me what I want and what I don't. When I started cursing they said not to talk like that, I could give two flying fucks because it's my voice, I choose what the air I breathe to comes out as, I don't care if it isn't socially acceptable because I'm not looking to get accept.

I've been rejected my whole life and it took me to damn long to realize I fucking loved it. I love it so damn much, the fact that a whole classroom will shut up to listen to what I have to say because it's always wise. I just wish that the other people in the world relaize that it's okay to be a reject, in fact it's fucking perfect. There's 7 billion people in the world and you are one of the ones that stand out, and because of that society fears you, they fear you because they know how far you can actually come, and because they know they can do it to bit their not crazy enough, but you, you my love are crazy, just like me. I am out of my motherfucking mind, and I love it. My whole life they've told me I couldn't do it. My whole life they've told me I'm just an attention seeker, well maybe I am, you know what screw it, I am an attention seeker but what in the hell is wrong with that? Attention isn't bad if used correctly, and if I got the attention I wanted I would start a motherfucking revolution, because who in the living fuck are you to tell the people that have different opinions as you that their crazy, who the fuck are you to make them feel so bad they take they own life, there was nothing wrong with them, yet you stripped their souls apart word by word. To those people that are called crazy, rejects, fat, skinny, gay, stupid, sluts, idiots, rebels or anything else along those lines, let me tell you something you are fucking perfect, every single living atom of you is so fucking precious and they are the crazy ones to think that even if there's 7 billion people in the world,that still everyone is gonna have the same opinions. To everyone who gets called all of those things take it as a compliment, because people notice different people, and why they are to busy trying to be the perfect image society wants you should know you're already perfect. My whole life I've been told to follow the rules, but I refuse to be just one typical human, because I won't walk with a stick up my ass, I refuse to die and be forgotten.

My whole life I've been told to fight my demons, but what would I ever be without my demons, they are mine, and instead of fighting them I embraced them because if I really do fight them that'll be fighting with myslef and I won't waste time on that, we have so little time on this planet, you don't relaize how much time you actually waste cleananing your room, or doing homework. I've rather start a revolution than waste time getting plastic surgeries because as sad as it may seem we spend all eternity dead and just a short amount of time alive, what good will a 'pretty' face do to you when your 6ft underground on a coffin. So I will use my years, this few years that I have to make my name know.

My whole life they've told me to fit in, and from know on I laugh at their faces because they don't realize that they have grown up and became teachers, did you know that the majority of teachers wanted to be something else but yet there they are, because they fitted in. Today my history teacher asked me what I wanted to be, and I straight up told her I wanted to be remebered and she said not to fill my head with dreams, and I was in shock, why can't I dream, someone dreamed of the car and they made it, God dreamed of us and he created us and here you are telling me to stop dreaming, what the fuck is wrong with you. As a famous quote says "the ones crazy enough to think they can change the world are the ones that do." Most teachers want us to grow up and be ordinary they want us not to be crazy, don't tell me to not fucking dream because I will make my dreams into a reality and I will show you just how much one single dream, maybe a dream you told a student not to have because it was absurd, that dream has a power to make a difference.

My whole life I've been told to fit in, but I can't. I'm a Rebel, that's what I am, and I fucking love it, so everytime somebody tells me I can't do something, my mind starts thinking of all the ways I could do it and I respond with a simple yet powerful, Watch me.