And now enter Kristian, December 2016
He was 24
Had the prettiest green eyes
And tattoos
He was a country boy
Living in Mississippi, so long distance
His fiancé had called off their engagement and he was heartbroken
He was suicidal
Or so he said
The thing that I've come realize about him is that he's a master manipulator
He made me feel so bad for him and take on so much of his shit
And by the time we were done
I didn't recognize myself
He would tell me that he's sitting in a bar drinking and got drunk
Hoping that on the way home he'd crash
And that, that would be his demise
But silly me would fall for it every time, because he was never gonna do that
He was controlling me from miles away
And I never noticed
We argued, but I thought that was normal for adult couples
He would make me feel bad about not talking to him on the phone
And that would be what split us up
Well that and him talking to another girl
The Argument of all arguments!
He called me a bitch
Said things to me that made me question myself
My sanity
And then just left
I didn't realize until last year that I was taking on all of this man's baggage
All of his bullshit
And when I looked at a picture of myself from the day after we ended shit in early 2017
To May 2018
I was so small
I had skipped so many meals and so much sleep
Just to be there for him
Looking at myself then I almost broke down
I was so disappointed in myself
To lose myself in someone like that
Never again
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If you guys wanted to know how the pictures looked I'll leave them here
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APRIL 2017
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JUNE 2018
A lot of you guys might not see the difference but I do and everytime I look at those pictures it breaks my heart.
