𝒯𝒽𝑒 𝒫𝓇𝑜𝒷𝓁𝑒𝓂 𝐼𝓈• Max x Male!Reader

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"Why did I fall for you? I gave it all for you."

(Y/N) POV

"GOOOOOOOD MORNING CAMPERS!!!!!" I assume David shouted from outside the tents. Max completely ignored him and some campers even groaned loudly. I can hear it from here.

"Shut the fuck up, David!" I shout back clearly annoyed. I absolutely hate mornings, I might even hate it more then life itself.

"Language (Y/N), and we have camp activities to get to this morning!" Sighing in frustration, I walk out the tent and stand next to the tall red head.

Soon, every single camper is outside, all except for the one and only Max. David crouches down to my height so we meet eye-to-eye. "Hey (Y/N), do you mind getting Max- if he refuses I'll send Nikki in." He shows me a warm smile.

There's that feeling again. FOR FUCK SAKES IM NOT GOING TO LIKE THE DAMN COUNCILOR, it's that parent like feeling- well it feels like reassurance or something. As if one of your parents congratulated you on something.

I almost smile back, but instead I roll my eyes and walk in.

"Yo shit head-" I felt something... No... Someone pull me down. "Max, what the hell are you doing!?" I take a moment to process what's happening.

I was on top of Max on the floor. I was technically straddling him. My face literally feels like it's on fire- if there's a god up there- please let me know if I should commit suicide right now!

"Uhh- M-Max, What the fuck..?" I stutter out looking at him. His face is a crimson shade red, so I guess he surprised himself too.

"(Y/N)! I'm sorry! I- Shocked- Defense- Uh." He stammered on and I covered his mouth with my hand. "Max it's okay! Calm the hell down. I'm getting out of here... The campers are starting the activities an-" "Shut the fuck up and leave already! You worthless shitty asshole!"

"You worthless shitty asshole!" That sentence repeated in my head as I walked back to David. He's right. Fuck.

I slowed down my pace and my vision became slightly blurry. Shit- am I crying!? For fucking sakes (Y/N), stop being a pussy. I felt a single tear roll down my face. Damn it.

"Oh, there you are (Y/-" I turned around to face a puzzle looking Neil. "Are you okay? Why are you crying? Did you hurt yourself?" "Stop asking so many fucking questions bitch!" I sneer back and turn back around.

"Jeez I'm sorry, but we gotta get to the mess hall. It's where the activities will be held today." The brunette male said placing a hand on my left shoulder. I pushed his hand off and rolled my eyes.

"I'm skipping the activities. Tell David to go fucking die." And with that, I walked along this dark trail that led to the forest.

It felt like hours of walking, but I'm pretty sure it's only been 5 minutes. All these trees look exactly the same so I'm probably lost. A-fucking-mazing.

Since I'm getting bored, I decided why not try to die right now. I climb up this really tall tree and sit on the highest branch I could reach. It's tall enough to at least kill someone- I think.

Final words? Hmm I got a few. Thank you mom for bringing me to hell and deciding to date the actual devil who is my stepfather. Thank you David for... well I don't know, I just thought you where going to be like a father figure to me.

I start to feel a wave of sadness flow through me. Is this really how I wanna die? I was thinking more of a bullet to the head, but this works too.

Thanks for making me feel like I sorta belonged, Nikki. Neil- I don't really know what you did. Max...

I feel tears run down my face- again- but this time it's not cause of the past and shit. This time it's about Max.

Why am I crying over that dumbass!? Ugh fuck life. I kinda liked him- woah what the hell. LIKE!? Ha, yeah right. Like I'd like a stupid asshole like that.

But still... I'm not labeling myself or anything. I'm not gay! I swear!!! Gay is a sin!! But my whole life is a sin... Man why is this so difficult. I like girls, but boys are cute/handsome too. I think I'm bi- WHAT AM I THINKING!? I'm supposed to be dying right now.

I finally realized I've been sitting on this branch for quite some time. By quite some time, I mean the whole camp day.

"(Y/N)!!" I hear from the distance. It's sounds a lot like David- ehh, probably is. "(Y/N)!! Where are you!!!??" Definitely Nikki. It's just her annoying voice. "We'll never find him. I'm heading back." The one and only Neil.

"(Y/N), You dumbass where are you!?" Max... A weird feeling starts bubbling inside me. It fucking hurts! Why does it hurt!? It's like- as if something is fluttering in my stomach or some shit.

I pull my knees up to my chest. I don't want to be found. I just want to be dead.

Ya' know what. I'm gonna fall back and hopefully I die. That sounds like an amazing idea, right? Yeah I know I'm right.

I fix myself on the branch and sit still.

"Guys! Is that (Y/N)?!" I hear Max shout from here. Look at the dark side- with me dead, I won't have to think about him.

I swiftly push myself back and feel the air blow past me.

I brace myself for impact my shutting my eyes... but I never felt anything.