my sweet serendipity || Park Jimin

Preperation.

I see myself . Here I am . Running . What am I running from?. Where am I going ?. I turn and see this figure glaring at me , the figure is catching up to me . It was like my legs wouldn't stop me or turn me I was just going in one single direction at a speed I don't think I have ever ran before . I keep turning around to see this figure , it's just a shadow with eyes staring right through me . I turn back around facing where I was running to .. the thing was there right there inches from my face extending a snarled hand toward my face I let out a gasp and -

Rrrinngggggggggggg
My alarm sounds .
I sat up quickly trying to catch my breath. I wiped my sweat drenched forehead and sighed in relief .
I was diagnosed with "Nightmare Anxiety Disorder "
about 3 years ago. I don't know what caused it and I don't know how to rid of it . Lately I have been having this horrific nightmare about this "thing" that follows me , which has me looking behind my back all the time . I know it's corny but I am terrified . I don't know what caused this nor do I know who this figure is trying to display , I just want it to end so I can stop sleeping with that damned nightlight on . I'm not leading a good example for my baby sister Vivian who has been trying to wean off of her own nightlight.

" you okay Tom Tom?" , Vivi says peeking through my door crack . I couldn't help but giggle because my 6 year old sister checks up on me more than anyone in my family , it shouldn't be funny to me yet it is just because a small child knows when somethings wrong with her big sister over her own mother . I nod and gesture her to come sit on my bed . " Today is the day ", I said smiling from ear to ear grabbing little Vivi's hand . " You come back right? You come back to see me and noodles?" , Vivi holds up her Zebra plush in the air toward me . I grab " Noodles" her zebra and hold him up high like a child . " Now of course I am going to come back to see you and Noodles Vivi! It's just college boo it's going to make me a smarty pants . Don't you want that for your big sissy?" , I ask my sister who's trying to snatch her plush out my hands . " well yes , but if you were a smarty pants you would give me my noodles back ", she pouts and I hand her the worn yet loved toy .
I grab Vivian into my arms holding her . I don't know what I would do without this girl . I didn't like her at first but I went nearly 12 years without a sibling . I was a only child til my mother met a man named Jerome who wooed her into marriage very quickly as you may assume, Vivi came shortly after that as well. " Alright , Alright enough of the lovin' go brush your teeth and get mom up it's almost that time ", I smile again.

I didn't expect this day to come so fast . The day I started at a university that I barely made it into . It's pretty brag worthy though and my moms definitely not afraid to boast about it . Today was the day I would move into my dorm at The University of Michigan. I lived about 3 hours or so away from there so I knew this drive was going to be hectic with a bipolar 6 year old in the car & my mom with her her overbearing argumentative husband . I planned for months on what I would make my dorm look like and I was imagining the roommate I would have . Maybe she would be like me or maybe she would be a intelligent girl I could copy off of to get through these next 4 years .
I hate school let me just admit it now .
Never was I one to wake up and be excited for drama or excited for someone new to bully me . How can someone bully me because I'm ugly ?? I have not one clue.

" hellloooo bitch I am here and I am present !!", Lynn comes bursting through my door in excitement . " Oh lord ," I mutter holding my head .
Lynn is my bestfriend not just bestfriend she's my bestest bestfriend , I have come across many many friends and here she was to stay after 9 years .
Lynn plopped onto my bed destroying all the clothes I had folded . She picked them up by the handfuls tossing them into my suitcase. " gee thanks " I let out with a half-assed smile . She flipped her fiery orange hair to the side exposing her cowlick . " Always here to help YOU!", she says pointing her finger between my eyes . I roll my eyes and giggle .
I zipped up the last bag of things of mine and rested on my bare bed staring at the glow in the dark stars on my ceiling . I was about to fall into the abyss of my thoughts until I was rudely interrupted by Lynn ," uhn uhn girl get up you are not about to look like that striving to college you better get your ass up and moving". I slammed my head back against the bed and let out a grunt . I could feel her staring at me smiling .
" You know what , fine !", I finally sigh.
I wrap my hair up as I sit on my chair in front of my small vanity . I knew how to do makeup I just didn't want to . Who do I have to impress? My boyfriend didn't care that I would have messy hair and bare face why should lynny care ? Oh right ! Because she's Lynn The Ginger Beauty Queen who so happens to be my bestfriend . I let out a long sigh . Let's make this quick I think to myself , I have 2 hours til I hit the road .