Strings | colby brock

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|January 02, 2018|

Reforget

         Today was Adrianna's funeral. I hadn't left Colby's room since we got back, but I knew I would eventually have to drag myself away from the intense wallowing I had been partaking in for the last few hours. Cooper, Sommer and Mason wanted to follow Adrianna's wishes and throw a party to celebrate her life. She had always said, "When I die, throw a bomb party in my honor," and that's exactly what we planned to do. The roommates had agreed to host, and I could already hear the beginning of a long night unfolding below me. I was still dressed in my black dress, wrapped up in Colby's comforter with my face buried into the pillow. His scent kept me calm as I laid there.

         "Babe?" Colby's familiar voice calls quietly from the door. I hear his feet padding against the hardwood until he appeared in front of me and crouched down. His brown hair is still damp from a shower— towel slung over his bare shoulder. "Are you sure you don't want me to take you home?" He asks while brushing a few flyaways from my face. I move the blankets away from my face and open my arms. A small smile forms on his face as he moves to lay on the bed in my arms.

         "I just need this for a minute." I mutter into his chest. He strokes my hair and places a small kiss on the top of my head. We lay there in silence before I pull away with a sigh. "You go ahead and go down. I'll find you in a little while." I tell him.

         "Are you sure?" Colbys asks with his eyebrow raised. I nod with a smile, responding to the gentle kiss he places on my lips. He rolls out of bed and hits the ground with a thud. I giggle in response and lean over the bed, looking down at him. "I'm glad my pain amuses you." He says sarcastically. I can't help but smile at his attempt to lighten my mood. He slips into his king of hearts shirt, paired with skinny jeans and his usual vans. Before he walks out of the room I stand up and look over his shoulder into the mirror he's currently checking over his outfit in. I run my fingers through his hair and fix it slightly, to which he smiles and turns to kiss me softly. As he pulls away he tugs on my lip with his teeth, an amused smirk on his lips as I smile.

         After he's left I fall back onto the bed with an exhausted yawn. All I want to do right now is crawl back into bed with Colby and wallow until I felt better, which I knew wouldn't be anytime soon. Adrianna would want me downstairs having the time of my life, so with much effort I push myself up off of the bed. I change out of the morbid black dress and into a pair of extremely ripped mom jeans and Colby's red 'take chances' shirt that I had, behind his back, turned into a crop top. While looking over my appearance in the mirror I pull my messy, post-nap hair into a high ponytail and pull out a few flyaways to frame my face. A knock on the door distracts me, Sommers face appearing in front of me once I open the door.

         "Am I going to have to drag you down?" Her words are slurred as she speaks, most likely as a result of the red cup in her hand. I continue clasping the chunky necklaces around my neck with a sigh.

         "I'm coming now." I say. After sliding my phone into my back pocket I walk out of Colby's room and shut the door behind me, following Sommer down into the mass of drunk, sweaty bodies. Colby immediately locks eyes with me as soon as I land on the last step. He makes his way through the crowd of people with a warm smile and wraps his arm around my neck, pulling me closer and kissing my temple quickly and discreetly. The familiar scent that radiates off of him calms my nerves slightly as we make our way into the kitchen.

         We didn't want anyone but the roommates and close friends to know of our official relationship, so we didn't do anything more than what we usually did at parties when we were just fuck buddies. Colby stood close against me in the crowded kitchen while I poured myself a drink. He couldn't keep his hands off me, but in a sweet way, whether his hand be placed softly on my arm or barely touching me at all, it was still there. I felt cold when his touch disappeared, and I turned to see him being dragged off by Brennen. His eyes were searching over the kitchen as he was pulled away, and when we locked eyes I gave him a reassuring smile that I would be fine. Brennen was laughing the whole way, pointing at something I couldn't see.

         Cooper and the others were nowhere to be found. I wandered aimlessly through the mass of bodies in hopes of running into someone I know. Not that I minded being alone, but I wouldn't mind the company. It hurt that I couldn't search the crowd for Adrianna's familiar face; that I wouldn't see her smiling and dancing in the crowd of people. I pushed down the sick feeling in my stomach and walk out to the backyard where only a few people are sat around a small fire. I wandered over to the outdoor kitchen that had never been used and slide myself up onto the marble.

         My eyes rake over the scene unfolding before me. People are laughing and drinking with their friends while having the time of their lives. They just live in the moment without a care of what could happen next. Not wondering who the next person they lose would be. I couldn't lose anyone else, at least not right now. All I wanted was to find Colby and go to bed, but I didn't want to ruin his mood with mine. He adored Adrianna, but her death wasn't hitting anyone here as hard as it hit me. 

         I slid off of the counter and walked toward the back door, heading straight into the kitchen. I was handed a shot by Cooper that I happily downed before refilling my drink. "Hey, Colby was looking for you a minute ago. I think he's still in the main room." Cooper shouted to me over the music. Not wanting to strain my voice I shot him a quick nod and pushed through the obnoxiously drunk influencers. I was pretty tall compared to most girls I knew, but it was still difficult for me to see over the crowd.

         I spotted the back of Colby's head, a partial view of his shirt and moved around a couple intensely making out in the middle of the hallway. When I looked up again, he was gone. I huffed and furrowed my eyebrows. In an attempt to have a better view I stood on the last step of the staircase and looked over the crowd. My eyes wandered until I caught sight of him again, but it wasn't happiness I felt this time. My stomach knotted up and it felt as though my heart has been ripped out of my chest. Sommer had her hands knotted in his hair, his placed on her waist as they kissed. When he pulled away from her he looked sort of surprised, but I didn't care to know why. My eyes began welling with tears, but I managed to catch a glimpse of his blue eyes locking with mine before it became too blurry to see.

         I wiped furiously at my cheeks as I pushed through the crowd of people. This was like the first time, but six hundred times worse. My heart was aching and my head began to throb. I knew Colby was following me but I didn't care. My vans pounded against the concrete driveway and I ignored the people staring at me as I passed. 

         "Cami! Cami, wait!" Colby shouted from behind me. I ignored him and pushed myself to run faster. There wasn't anywhere for me to go, considering I didn't drive myself and my phone was dead, but I didn't care. I was going to keep running until I couldn't run anymore. That is, until I felt his familiar hand wrap loosely around my wrist, gently tugging me to a stop.

NEXT CHAPTER IS THE LAST CHAPTER!! But there will be a sequel :)

xoxo JEN