The Apprentice Assassin (Complete but editing) MxM

Journal entry #4

"Little one..." Colin whispered in a somber voice. I didn't have the heart to answer him, so I stayed silent and pulled away when he reached for me again. "Paul," He repeated in a more demanding tone, his passion fading. "You knew from the beginning we would never get to be married. I saved you in hopes of being your future partner, but there was never a chance that we could become more than that. The sooner you get that through your head, the better. We need to focus and strategize, else we might be killed, or worse captured.

"Yes master." I spat back before throwing the covers off my body and getting out of the bed. My naked body chilled by the cold stone beneath my feet. "We can strategize tomorrow. I'm going to bed." My anger clouding my vision I started for the door.

"Paul..." Colin called out after me, rising from his bed and starting after me. "Get back here, we must discuss our plans.

"No, you just want to use my body again before the morning comes!" I argued as I slammed the door open and strode through the castle towards my room, ignoring the cold that nipped at my entire body. "We're just partners, right? That's all we are to you, then we can work as partners tomorrow!" I exclaimed in a bitter tone. A large hand shoved my shoulder, forcing my back against the wall with enough force to knock the wind out of me. I let out a gasp as the cold stone began to steal what little heat was in my body. Colin was glaring at me through the torchlight. His robes creased and wrinkled. "Let go of me!" I demanded as I tried to pull free from his grasp.

"You listen to me, now!" Paul demanded, his icy cold voice silencing me. "I am still your master, and you are still my apprentice. That means you follow my orders! Defiance burning bright in my eyes I rolled my shoulder up and used my free arm to force his arm off me. He recoiled from the swing, and I used that moment of weakness to resume my journey towards my own room. Suddenly his muscular hands were wrapped around my midsection, then my feet left the ground. "You can't escape me, I won't let you!" His icy voice chilling me to my core.

"So this is what you resort to?" I spat as I struggled to break free. First you order me on rank, then you try and manhandle me into submission? I won't be a piece of meat for your pleasure. If you try and force me I will flee the order. You know I know how!"

"Listen to me damn it." Colin hissed, as he turned us around and started back towards his room. "You brought up the topic of life partners, you have no right to be mad at me for following the rules." He squeezed me tighter as his hands began to shake. Letting out a soft sigh, his grip loosened slightly as we drew closer to his bedroom. I tried to squirm free as he turned the corner and started towards the open door that led to his room. "I don't want to force you to do anything, but you won't listen to me when you're acting like this!"

"Define listen!" I cried out as he kicked the door shut behind him and started for the bed. "Because all I see is an overgrown man forcing himself on his student!"

Throwing me down onto the bed, he quickly climbed on top of me and pinned me to the bed. "Calm down, and we can speak further." Colin ordered as he used his massive size to keep me still.

"And if I refuse?" I argued, struggling against his overbuilt frame.

Colin's hot, ragged breath began to slow as I felt my muscles begin to weaken. My limit had been reached, and I started losing the strength I had. Ignoring the feeling of his body sliding against mine, I continued to struggle, weaker with each passing second. "Then I will be forced to reprimand you." He replied in a deep calming voice. As I took another breath in, my rage beginning to leave me as pain and bitterness continued to course through me.

"You really are a piece of work!" I growled out as his overwhelming body mass kept me in place. "I don't know why I even bother with you..."

"Because you love me," Colin replied, another slow breath escaping his lips as his silky voice began to return. "And I love you too little one..."