I lost you | Vkook

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They walked into the quiet apartment. Namjoon must've still been asleep since it was only about 5am
"Do you want any food?" Jin asked walking into the kitchen.
"No" Taehyung whispered just loud enough for him to hear. Jin sighed but just allowed him to be by himself.

Taehyung made himself comfortable on the couch. Jungkook was the only thought in his head, he was still in denial about his death. He just couldn't comprehend how the boy he had loved so much and who he was with yesterday just wasn't there anymore. Gone. He could never see him again.

Taehyung didn't even notice the tears that were falling down his cheeks. Jin walked into the room and frowned at him. He went and put his arms around Taehyung.
"I want him back, hyung" Taehyung whispered.
"I know, so do I. It'll get better I promise" Jin strokes his head, his own tears falling down his face again.

Namjoon then walked into the room and saw them both sitting on the couch. He bit his lip already guessing what had happened. His lip trembled and he walked over the two.
"Is he?" He asked not actually able to say the words.
Jin nodded as Taehyung sniffed trying to compose himself but failing terribly.

Namjoon sat next to them and joined the very wet hug but they desperately needed to comfort each other.
"Taehyung" Jin eventually sniffed out "if you want you can live with us for a while. I know you might not want to be alone right now"

Taehyung shook his head as he wiped his face, sitting up "thank you but I need to go back to the apartment. It is my home after all, that's where all my stuff is. I've got things to organise anyway"
"Let me give you a ride home" Namjoon offered.
"No thanks hyung. I want to clear my head"

Taehyung bid goodbye to them both and walked out into the cold morning air. It wasn't a long walk to his apartment but it felt like so long to Taehyung. People would take a second glance at him as he walked, probably at his tear stained face.

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He eventually reached the apartment, it was exactly how they had left it. Before they had went to the hospital for a 'quick check up'. Before.....

Taehyung didn't want to think about it. He had more important things to do. He had to get Jungkook's funeral sorted as quickly as possible. He looked around for the list that he had Jungkook make for what he wanted at his funeral.

He eventually found it under a cushion in the living room. He looked at it and saw Jungkook's slightly messy handwriting across it.

Things for funeral:
A trampoline
A bouncy castle
Big Bang (I swear if they aren't being played I will come and haunt you)
Cake
A massive iron man costume
A massive buffet, use my savings I don't mind
Balloons
Little party bags for everyone who attends (containing fun little trinkets, like that you would get in Christmas crackers)
I'm bored writing this
You're looking at me I better continue writing
I love you Taehyung
You're really pretty
Okay you've left the room I don't need to write this anymore
P.S. don't actually get all these stupid things for my funeral just do whatever it's not like I'm there to see it. Do whatever makes you happy because that makes me happy. Except Big Bang I was serious when I said if they aren't played I will haunt you.

Taehyung felt more tears come to his eyes as he read the note. He felt as if Jungkook was talking, in the way that he wrote. He could imagine his soft voice, his little laughs when he thought what he was saying was funny. How he would laugh harder when he would've seen Taehyung's unimpressed expression. Taehyung missed him, he wanted nothing more than to be held by Jungkook as he told him that this was all just a dream and that he was okay. That everything would be alright. But Jungkook wasn't there anymore to do that.