We're sitting in my room, laying on the bed. It was one of those chill nights. Just Spencer and I, and low music coming from my computer.
"Coming to the game tomorrow?" Spencer
asks. "Probably not, why?" I ask. "Oh just wondering, but you have to come, I need you to cheer for me." he said.
He smirks at me, putting his hands on my hips and pulls me closer to him; he looks at my eyes, then lips, then back to my eyes.
"I don't want to." I say a little whiny. "Why?" he asks
"Because half of the time — all of the time — I don't know what going on." I answer. "Who cares, I just want you there when I'm playing." he says. "Let's not forget those sluts that jump at you any chance they get." i say
Spencer and I have been together for almost 6 months now, its hard being with Spencer, he isn't out of the closet yet, and I'm okay with it. I would never to push to come out if he isn't ready, but it's just hard, seeing those girl flirting with him and touching him always gets on my nerves because i can't do anything about it.
Spencer is a football player, 'those girl' and the cheerleading team. I don't even know why the school has one, it's pathetic. Anyways it's fine, I love Spencer and he loves me. Nothing can come between us. Hopefully.
He pulls me even closer to him and held both my hands in his. Looking at me straight in the eyes. His expression turned a bit serious.
"You know i feel nothing towards those girls, right?" he asks. "Yeah i guess." I answer. "And you know i love you, and only you." he says. "And I love you too." i say. "So you have nothing to worry about, okay?" he says. "Okay." i say bitting my lip, trying to hide back a smile.
"I told you to never do that." he say, bringing his thumb to my lips and separating them, and with that comes the smile.
"There's that goofy smile." he says smiling back.
We sit in silence for a few minutes, the music still playing in the background as i just admire what's in front of me. I lean in and kiss him, a smooth, soft, and an unhurried kiss, he kisses me back and it's just.. astonishing.
"I love you." I say
"I love you." He says back
I put my head under his chin and he runs his fingers through my hair. It's one of those times where I'm even more grateful for him. How did i get so lucky with someone like him. Charming. Caring. Sweet. Adorable. Loving. He's driving my brain insane, i swear I've never thought about anyone this way before.
That's why it's also scary, he has a hold on me that could break me into a thousand pieces in a matter of seconds. I'm scared. I always am. I try to be brave, but the doesn't always work.
"Kiss for your thoughts?" Spencer speaks up, i nod and he lifts my head and kisses me.
"I was thinking about you. How did i get so lucky with you because we're two different people, but still somehow end up together. You have this hold on me, that could shatter me like a broken mirror. Just the thought of you drives me insane, and I'm scared. Scared that one day you'll realize that you don't want me anymore and leave.
I always think about that when we're together, then you kiss me, and all that goes away. Also i wonder if you'll ever be okay with coming out, I'm not forcing you to, and i never will. It's your decision to make not mine. Basically what i'm trying to say is that I'm scared of us ending, i don't know what i'd do if i couldn't talk to you, kiss you, cuddle with you. My brain is annoying, really." I explained.
At this point my chin was laying on his chest, my face looking at his, waiting for a reaction, but what do i get? Nothing. He's just staring back at me with a blank look.
Seconds later he's on his feet heading for the door. What did i say? Is that the coming out part? i knew i shouldn't have said that part. You're so dumb Riley. You always mess things up.
"Be at the game tomorrow." with that he's gone.
to be continued....
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Hey again :)
So this is my second one-shot, and it has two parts. Second one might come out today or tomorrow. Now you play the waiting game lol.
Anyways if you're reading this, i love you. :))
