Lost Notes from a Time of Despair

Girl Stuff

The best part about most of my school? Tons of days off. 

Most of the time, my siblings don't get them. 

Then I can wear clothes that make me feel better without any awkward stares from them, not worry about being caught wearing my breastforms because everyone who would be confused or angry is away, and try on makeup without anyone telling me to take it off or that I look weird.

But y'know what?

I'm bringing my girl stuff to all-states with me. I don't care if my mom put male down on my registration form, I am a girl and I am not hiding that fact anymore out of fear of anyone else telling me I'm a liar or a freak. Plus, it'll be my first time unsupervised and openly trans around people who accept me, and if that isn't a good time to start doing this in public, what would be? I'm done hiding who I am. I'm nervous, but I'm feeling committed to doing this in a way I haven't for so long. 

And if my parents don't like that? 

Too bad, I'm not changing for them, either.