SBMBG 2: The Skater and Ballerina's Twisted Fate (COMPLETE)

Chapter 1: This is Now

♩♪♫♬ Lately I'm not who I used to be
Someone's come and taken me
Where I don't wanna go
If I knew exactly what i have to do
In order to be there for you
When you are feeling low♩♪♫♬

I grabbed closer the mic while singing here on the stage with closed eyes. Nandito ako sa practice room at hindi ko alam kung bakit sa dinami- dami ng kanta, I chose this song to practice. Jeez, ang mabuti pa, 'wag ko na lang bigyan ng meaning. Hindi naman lahat ng bagay kailangang bigyan ng kahulugan di ba?

Just like her, wala yatang meaning lahat ng ginawa at sinakripisyo ko para sa kanya eh. So why do I have to feel this way, still? Crap.

♩♪♫♬ And all the things we ever wanted
Were once yours and mine
Now, I know we can revive it
All the love we left♩♪♫♬

I reach for the pitch but I cannot seem to reach for the meaning of the lyrics. Oo, she's once mine and I am hers but it's not something we can revive, she left me and it may also mean that there's no love left for us, not after 5 years, I think. But that's not what I want to believe, honestly.

♩♪♫♬ Everytime I kiss I feel your lips and
Everytime I cry I see your smile and
Everytime I close my eyes I realize that
Everytime I hold your hands in mine
The sweetest thing my heart could ever find
And I have never felt this way
Since the day I gave your love away ♩♪♫♬

While singing this, I can't help to think of her, I miss her. Napaghipit ang hawak ko sa mic. What the hell? Missing the person that left me? Dahan dahan kong binuksan ang mga mata ko. Hindi ko na kayang ituloy ang pagkanta, I cannot fully move on kung hanggang ngayon, sya pa rin ang iniisip ko.

"......Xionnen." I whispered nung makita ko si Xionnen na nakatayo sa harap ko at pinapanuod akong mag practice. She smiled at me. Inayos ko ang chord para sa mic at kumuha ng stool at dinala iyon para may maupuan sya.

"Nice, Bench." She commented about my singing. "Thank you." she added before sitting on the stool I got for her. Naupo na lang ako sa isang malapit na mesa sa gilid ng pwesto niya.

"Anong ginagawa mo dito? Akala ko kasama mo si Shone para sa pictorial mo sa kabilang studio?" tanong ko kay Xionnen at kinuha yung bag ko sa di kalayuan at kumuha ng bote ng tubig na ininom ko din naman agad. Nakakauhaw eh.

"Yup, he said we still have 10 minutes before preparation kaya pinuntahan muna kita." sagot niya. Tumayo sya at lumapit sa akin, kinuha niya yung panyo niya sa bulsa ng suot- suot niyang pantalon at pinunasan yung pawis ko sa noo.

"Thanks." Kinuha ko yung panyo mula sa kamay niya at ako na ang nagpunas sa sarili ko. AC naman dito sa practice room, sadyang nakakapawis lang dahil kanina pa ako nagpa-practice, kung hindi ko lang siguro biglang naalala si Ianne, until now I'm still torturing my vocal chords.

"Ahm, sige Bench, balik na ako doon ha?" paalam niya sa akin. I nodded as a response. She walked towards the door hesitantly. It's like she's waiting for something.

"Ah, Xionnen, 'wag mong pagurin sarili mo ah. I'll call you later." Sabi ko at nag- gesture pa na tatawagan ko sya using my hand. She gives me a smile that instance, parang nag light up ang spirit niya sa ginawa ko.

"Okay! Ikaw din Bench." sabi niya. Kitang kita ko kung gaano sya kasaya dahil lang sa sinabi ko. Sinara na niya ang pinto at agad namang lumipad ang utak ko habang nakaupo pa rin ako dito sa table...