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"I'm nervous." Mahinang sabi ko habang mahigpit na nakahawak sa mic.
Hinawakan ni Terrence ang kamay kong nakahawak sa mic.
"Don't be. I'm here. All you need to do is to stay calm..." Tinitigan niya ako at bumuntong hininga siya ng makitang hindi ako kalmado tulad ng gusto niyang mangyari. "Just sing, ok? Don't mind the people, just keep your eyes close." Masuyong sabi niya sakin.
Kinabahan akong tumango sakanya.
Marami kaming nasa back stage at mukhang ako lang yata ang kinakabahan. Iyong iba halos excited ng magperform sa stage, kulang nalang ay paalisin nila si Dean na nagsasalita sa harapan. Ito ang unang pagkakataon na kakanta ako sa harap ng maraming tao at feeling ko ay magkakamali ako. Ang daming pumapasok na negativity sa utak ko, ganito talaga siguro kapag kinakabahan.
Ngayong araw ang umpisa ng college week, halos lahat ng estudyante ay nandito sa gymnasium para sa pagsisimula at by course ang magpeperform, sadly kasali kaming dalawa doon ni Terrence.
Matapos ang ilang performers ay kami na ang sumunod. Nakatayo ako sa gitna ng stage hawak ang mic at si Terrence naman ay nakaupo sa harap ng piano. Lahat ng mata ay nakatingin sakin, inilibot ko ang tingin ko at nakita ko sila Kuya Ryan sa may bandang gitna kasama ang kanyang mga pinsan at ilang kaibigan, kasama rin ang kapatid ko. Kita ko kung paano sila nagulat na nakatayo ako ngayon sa harapan nilang lahat. Ang titig ni Peter ay ang nagpakaba sakin.
Huminga ako ng malalim at tipid na ngumiti. Ipinikit ko ang aking mata tulad ng sabi ni Terrence nang magsimula siyang tumutugtog.
This is it!
Dirty tissues, trust issues
Glasses on the sink, they didn't fix you
Lonely pillows in a strangers bed
Little voices in my head
Secret keeping, stop the bleeding
Lost a little weight because I wasn't eating
All the souls that I can't listen to, to tell the truth...
I heard murmurings..... Idinilat ko ang aking mata para makita kung ano ang kanilang reactions. Pero titig agad ni Peter ang nakita ko.
Loving you was young, and wild, and free
Loving you was cool, and hot, and sweet
Loving you was sunshine, safe and sound
A steady place to let down my defenses
But loving you had consequences...
"Whoooo! Kaibigan ko 'yan!" Hiyaw ni Cole sa tabi ni Peter..
Napangiti ako. Vinivideohan ako ni Kuya Ryan at Diego, parehas na tahimik akong pinanunuod ni Brian at Clay.
But Peter eyes is darting on me. May kung anong emosyon sa mga mata niya na hindi ko maipaliwanag. Masyadong intense ang titig niya sakin. Bumibilis ang tibok ng puso ko. I closed my eyes again at nagpatuloy sa pagkanta..
Hesitation, awkward conversation
Running on low expectation
Every siren that I was ignoring
I'm payin' for it..
Loving you was young, and wild, and free
Loving you was cool, and hot, and sweet
Loving you was sunshine, safe and sound
A steady place to let down my defenses
But loving you had consequences....
Naidilat ko ang aking mata ng bigla akong sabayan ng mga estudyante sa pagkanta. Humina ang boses ko dahil doon.
Loving you was young, and wild, and free
Loving you was cool, and hot, and sweet
Loving you was sunshine, safe and sound
A steady place to let down my defenses
But loving you had consequences
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