bts pt.2 // kim seokjin //

scene 10

Seokjin gasped.

i want to die.

He dropped the device, hands gripping fistfuls of his hair, eyeing the mess he has done.

i want to die.

His eyes shook, tears threatening to fall, lips apart as it trembled, just like his entire body.

i want to die.

The all too familiar red liquid rolled down to his palms, dripping down to the white tiles of the bathroom.

i want to die.

The blade laid astray on the tiles, decorated with red.

i want to die.

Seokjin eyed what he had done.

i want to die.

Reaching up to his elbows, the fresh, red, open cuts seemed to be embellishments.

i want to die.

He couldn't feel his arms anymore.

i want to die.

He grew weak from the blood he saw, eyeing the waterfall it created.

i want to die.

His mind can't take it anymore.

i want to die.

But his body had other plans.

i want to die.

He reached for the fresh pack of sticky notes and a pen.

i want to die.

Sliding down, he sat, still shaking, tears rolling, blurring his vision, and started writing down the only thing that ran across his mind.

i want to die.

Each press he made, droplets made their way out his body, both transparent and red.

i want to die.

He croaked out the words he had written over and over again.

i want to die.

He eyed the dloor as he struggled standing up, leaning on the wall for support.

i want to die.

Call him a pyscho an all.

i want to die.

But he saw the red, so,

i want to die.

Appealing.

i want to die.

Seokjin reached for the faucet, slowly, he brought his forearms to the running water, not flinching when red mixed with it.

i want to die.

Grabbing bandages, he rolled it across the cuts, apparently opening the ones on the arm he used to wrap.

i want to die.

He stared at the mess he made.

i want to die.

It wasn't easy cleaning up, but he did.

i want to die.

Putting on a new black hoodie, he pulled his sleeves, its hems reaching his palms.

i want to die.

He still had tears running down his eyes.

i want to die.

One thought only ran across his mind.

i want to die.