Wanting him (BxB) (editing)

The Truth Is Revealed

He opened his mouth hesitantly, almost like he was afraid of what my reaction would be, "I felt something when we kissed that other day. That's why I left so abruptly -

"Wait, what" I cut him off.

"Alex, I don't want this to hurt your relationship with Kyle so I won't say anything but -

"Oh, you've said enough! You don't get to choose to have feelings for me right after I'm in a relationship with Kyle. I've tried so hard to get over you Justin, and I'm not going to hurt Kyle and more importantly, I'm not going to hurt myself again." I let out

Furious wasn't even the right word to describe the emotion I was feeling right now.

Justin sat up so his back was straight against his bed board. "Alex, I didn't want to believe it at first considering that you're in a relationship with Kyle, but seeing you with him just made me realize how much I need you. Don't you see how much I need you?" he spoke more softly.

I let out a scoff, "Justin, I really can't do this right now"

Before I stood up, Justin was quick to hold onto my arm, "Alex please! Just stay with me" he paused, "Just stay with me until my parents come back home"

I let out a sigh. I wanted to leave. I wanted to forget this conversation ever happened but I couldn't help but feel for him.

This is the worst I've ever seen him.

He needed me and I had been so stupid to push him away this whole time.

"Okay fine"

I sat on his desk chair and grabbed a pencil, slowing turning it around my fingers. I could still feel my blood rushing through my veins and I couldn't help but feel angry at the mess I've put myself in.

I thought that being with Kyle would somehow solve all of my problems. Most importantly, it would have helped me get over Justin in hopes of rekindling our friendship, but nothing has been the same since I spilled the truth about my crush on him.

"Alex, I didn't mean to make you mad about this" he spoke.

I lifted my gaze to look into his green emerald eyes. The same eyes I fell in love with. "Justin, this is all too much. I can't take this anymore"

Justin played with the inside of his palm once again and gulped down the saliva in his mouth before letting these words out. "Do you still have feelings for me?"

I let out a scoff, "Are you really asking me that question? Justin, I like Kyle. He's my boyfriend"

Justin let out a laugh, "Alex I've known you for way too long to know that you are lying to me and yourself"

I kept my devilish grin, "Oh Justin, I'm surprised you even know anything about me considering you choose to spend most of your time with your current boyfriends"

He let out a chuckle, "Don't play that game, Alex. I know you enough to know that you regret ever being in a relationship with Kyle and you still have feelings for me"

I gulped, it was hard to deny when it was in fact true. "That's not true. You don't know what your talking about"

I hated how passive aggressive we were being. We were never like this.

I wasn't like this.

"Look me in the eyes and tell me you didn't feel anything when we kissed" he stared me down intently.

I opened my mouth to speak but the door knob turned and we both turned to see Justin's mom near the doorway.

When her eyes landed at Justin she let out a gasp, "Justin! What happened to you!"

"Mom, I'm fine" Justin groaned.

She stood with her hand rested on her hip and her other hand on her forehead, "Justin, tell me what happened right now"

Justin swallowed and then looked down, "It's not that big of a deal. I was at the wrong place at the wrong time and I was caught in a fight"

"Oh my god," his mom was furious.

"Mom, trust me, I'm fine. Alex picked me up and helped me with everything" he replied.

His mom still shocked at what had happened, nodded her head and turned to look at me. "Oh thank you, Alex! I don't what I would do without you"

"No problem Mrs. Patterson"

She looked between the both of us and then patted her hands on her shirt, "Well I will leave you guys alone. Justin if anything starts hurting just tell me"

Justin nodded his head, as she closed the door behind her.

An awkward silence accompanied us until I spoke, "How long are you going to lie to her Justin?"

"Technically, I wasn't lying!"

"Justin"

He rolled his eyes and let out a sigh, "Alex, you know they won't accept me. My dad basically kneels down for our church and my mom is as conservative as it gets!"

"Whatever happens, they're good people Justin. They will always love you" I explained.

"You never know" He let out.

I stood up from the chair, "Well, seeing that your mom is back home, I need to get back to my house. Kyle's waiting for me"

"Alright, thanks for helping me with everything"

He watched me as I walked towards the door and then spoke again, "And Alex, I know you felt something when we kissed"

That night, the conversation I had with Justin wouldn't leave my mind. Even in situations where I really should not be thinking of him, Justin always appeared in my mind telling me how our kiss made him feel something.

Kyle's lips were interlocked with mine, kissing me passionately. He pulled down my shirt to reveal my chest and began to suck deeply into my skin, leaving a mark indefinitely.

I let out a moan and ruffled my hand onto his hair before he stopped. "Alex, what's on your mind?"

"What?" I looked at him confusingly, "What do you mean?"

He let out a sigh, "I don't know. You seem kind of off. Did anything happen with Justin?"

I let out a scoff, "What? No! Of course not, babe" I reached to hold onto his hand, "I'm just a bit nervous about meeting your parents so soon"

"Oh, don't worry about it. We can go whenever you're ready" Kyle reassured as he placed the palm of his hand on my cheek and caressed my mouth with his thumb.

I nodded my head and leaned in to give him a quick kiss.

And unlike my kiss with Justin, I felt nothing.