Getting Jauregui

Chapter 5

I woke up in an unfamiliar room, everything is so bright and white, whats going on?
"Oh my god, SHE'S AWAKE" I heard someone shout, who's that?
Where am I, Why am I here?
"Camzi, Camzi oh my god Camila" Lauren sobbed walking over to me and giving me the biggest hug.
"Where am I?" I asked.
"The hospital Camz" she replied.
"Wh-hy?" I chocked out, she passed me a glass of water which I gladly accepted downing the entire thing still waiting for her answer.
"Your arms, you cut yourself again and you were losing to much blood, you've been out for a week"
Oh yeah, I remember, I cut myself because they caught me singing about her and because I deserve the pain.
"Why Camila, why'd you do it?" The beautiful green eyed goddess asked me.
"Because, I deserve it" I mumbled.
"Why do you deserve it?" She asked gently.
"I am in love with someone who I shouldn't be" I whispered.
"Is that who you wrote those songs for?" she questioned, caressing my forearm sending goosebumps all over my body.
I simply nodded due to the fact that I am stunned by her being so affectionate towards me.
"They were beautiful songs" She informed me.
"You're beautiful I whispered, just for myself to hear.
We sat there in silence until the doctor came in and did some testing on me, making sure I was okay and told me that I would be released tomorrow.
Dinah had offered to stay the night, but Lauren quickly jumped in offering to stay the night with me.

I started thinking, I am glad that I was in a coma for a week, meaning one less week of dealing with these feelings, everyone will leave me alone if I ask because these cuts will be healing for the next week and then we're on tour with Demi Lovato.

Lauren and I are currently in my hospital room, her sitting in the chair beside my bed, watching a movie. When the movie finished, Lauren turned to me.
"I remember, we're not done, what got you so upset this time and last time?" Lauren asked, I mentally cursed myself and decided that It's time, this is the time, the right time.
"The same both times" I replied nonchalantly.
"Which was?"
"The person I love" I replied bluntly.
"Who you wrote the songs for?" She questioned, I simply nodded.
"May I please know who this person is?" She asked.
"You promised you wouldn't be mad last time, that still stands" I said sternly, she nodded in agreement.
"The person I love is you Lauren, I love you, Not just as my sister but as my significant other, it's you and it always has been since the X-Factor. I know you're not Lesbian or even have the slightest interest in girls but I want you know that I love you, they say to fall in love it is hard and takes a long time, but with you it was inevitable, it's like you have this gravitational pull and it's making me gravitate towards you no matter what I do" I informed unfinished, feeling like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

I looked over at Lauren who sat there not even moving a muscle with her eyes wide, Fuck.
"Look I know you are not interested in girls but, I may have fire in my veins and ice in my heart, but goddamn, I can love you like you've never been loved before, I love you for not only the way you dance with my devils but for the way that the sound of your name can silence my demons.
I love your perfect brown hair, beautiful green eyes, luscious lips that look so soft that I wish I could taste, your impeccable body and your immaculate mind and soul, I am sorry that I am rambling but I just really cant lose yo-"
I was cut off by a pair of the softest lips in the world, this is happening, Lauren Jauregui is kissing me, I am kissing Lauren Jauregui.
She moved onto the bed so she was straddling me, my hands found their way to her face to cup her cheeks as hers found my hair gripping them, not once breaking the kiss.
I ran my tongue along Lauren's bottom lip, begging for entrance which to my surprise she accepted.
Her tongue met mine in the middle for a battle of dominance, and when our tongues grazed eachothers, it honestly felt like I was going to explode because of all of the electricity in my, my heart race was being monitored and I can just tell it is abnormal.
I pulled her closer to me, slowing the kiss down and sucking on her bottom lip earning a little moan from the older brunette, making me shudder at the sound because HOLY FUCK IT WAS HOT.

"What was that?" I question when she pulled away, still straddling me.
"You kissed me" She stated.
"YOU KISSED BACK" I whisper shouted.
"Okay Camila, the truth is, I have loved you, since the X-Factor, but the whole 'CAMREN' thing was getting to much for me, I wanted it to be true so bad but I was pretty sure you were with Austin and I wasn't sure you were going to want me back so I used the boys that I have dated to cover up that I really wanted you the whole time, it's always been you" Lauren said really fast.
"Why would you think I am with Austin, I'm lesbian, kind of don't like dick, thats what a lesbian is" I laughed.
"Oh yeah, sort of forgot that" she chuckled back.
"Are we going to tell the girls?"
"Tell them what?" she questioned.
"Lauren Michelle Jauregui" I stated.
"Karla Camila Cabello Estrabao" She reciprocated.
"Will you be my girlfriend?" I questioned, filled with insecurity.
Instead of answering my question, she just smashed her lips onto mine and gripped my hips.
"Answer your question" She asked.
"Depends which one" I said playfully.
"Both" 
"Hell yeah, by the way, that's the best way to answer anything just saying" I stated.

She's mine, Lauren Michelle Jauregui is mine. This is real.