Getting Jauregui

Chapter 4

I can't breathe, I am dying, I can't die without her knowing.

I felt 2 warm hands on me, who is that?

I slowly raised my head to check who was supplying me with the warmth to my cold soul.

Dinah and Lauren.

I slowly blinked away the last few tears, my blurry vision becoming clear and I saw Lauren and Dinah looking at me with such concern.

I just stood up, made my way out of there without a word, like there was much I could say anyway.

I made my way upstairs to my bedroom, locking the door and making my way towards the bathroom not bothering to lock the door considering my bedroom door is already locked.

Turning on the shower to drown out the sound of my sobs, I walk over to the cabinet under my sink reaching for the razor, throwing it to the floor and stomping on it, slightly relieved that I had slippers on but knowing I wouldn't care if I cut my foot.

I slowly picked out one of the blades from the razor and sat with my back leaning against the bath tub, I pressed the razor to my skin, one at a time, slicing the skin and not even wincing knowing I deserve the pain.

All of the sudden the door flew open and I just sat there, not knowing what to do and being completely out of it, I honestly don't even care about who see's me like this.

"MILA WHAT ARE YOU DOING" Dinah shouted between her little sobs, running over to me and bending down to pick up my arm.

"Lauren, Ally, Mani, QUICK COME TO MILA'S BATHROOM" I heard her shout not taking her eyes off of me, my eyes started to shut and everything that came through sounded as muffled voices.

The last clear thing I heard coming from any of the girls before completley blacking out what a sobbed out "Please stay with us Baby".

Lauren.