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so he's getting married
can i die now?
nope
that's illegal
god, i keep realising again and again that i wouldn't feel so shitty about this if it weren't for you
yep
you're welcome
i don't want to feel shitty, elizabeth
in time you won't
y'know..
he didn't even talk to me about his decision
he just
i guess my opinion didn't matter and i should've realised that
ryan
what?
stop feeling sorry for yourself
it's fucking annoying
okay, what else do you want me to do?
what am i supposed to do?
forget about him?
forget that i kissed him and for a second, i swear he kissed me back?
no, i didn't ask you to do that
ryan, it's not as if i don't care about you
it's not as if he doesn't, either
love is just stupid
i don't love him
i love you
my feeling for him doesn't feel the same way
it never will
don't expect it to
im not asking you not to love me
you can if it makes you feel better
know that i will always be here for you
and i will always love you
but you'd never be satisfied with me
i want you to be happy
you don't want to feel shitty
maybe brendon's not the guy
maybe he is
who knows?
just wait and see
i'm so tired
then take a nap, bub
i'll make sure no one bothers you
no, i'm tired of feeling like nothing matters
but, now..
he suddenly matters
that's shitty
i love you
i love you, too
why'd you say that?
i felt like you needed to see it
~
early update today bc i've got a speech tournament today and i don't wanna risk forget to put a chapter out😆
also. favourite character: elizabeth. like. no doubt.
what about y'all?
-RJ✌️
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Boulevard Dreamer (Ryden)
FanfictionJust outside of Phoenix, Arizona, Brendon Urie's mild-mannered alter ego is simply himself. A 25-year-old hairdresser who thinks he's seen it all and he's done all he can in this little town. It's a normal Monday afternoon with a lull in business wh...
